Sometimes I wish you would have the guts to do it. I know that you never will. Bit out is hard to listen to you talk about it. After you start I go into depression for as long as it takes until she helps me. She's the only one. You make it feel as though it is all my fault, and I believe it. That's the sad part of this whole thing, I believe that it is all my fault... People tell me it's not my fault but I don't know what to believe. I never know what to believe with you. I don't wish you dead, or gone and out of my life, I just want a changed person. If that is possible I don't know, but for your sake I hope sake I hope it is.
