Ace Diaries

2008

Flash Back To When I Was In Middle School: Sometime In 2008. Now, Looking back on some of my experiences I realized they should have been little clues.

It was a humid summer day in New England, like always. Minutes seemed like hours as I sat in the classroom waiting for the bell to ring for lunch. Finally, the bell rang. Students exploded into the hall from every side. I half jogged hoping to surpass some of the traffic, being last in the lunch line was not an option. My nose was assaulted by the merged scents of the school lunches as soon as I walked into the cafeteria. Disgusted by the smell, I purchased a bag of chips instead of a meal. Quickly, I found the table my friends were sitting at and took a seat.

Lunch table conversations proceeded as usual, we talked about our classes, our teachers and the grades we received on the science quiz. Then, Brogan, the guy who seemed to be every girls dream, walked by. All of my friends turned to gawk.

"oh, he's gorgeous." Elle said.

"mhmm." Tanya agreed.

"he's so hot." said Jenny.

Unsure of what they meant, I kept quiet and focused on eating my chips. My friends turned to face the table once again. The conversation that followed was one that I always hoped to avoid.

"So, Who's your crush?" Jenny asked.

"Uh, I can't say that I have one of those." I replied.

"That's a total lie, you definitely have a crush. You just don't want to tell us." Tanya said.

Under immense pressure, my heart raced in my chest. I didn't know what to do or what to say. I had no clue as to what they meant by "hot". Yeah, I would say Brogan was a good looking guy. I appreciated his appearance but wanted nothing to do with him. However, my friends kept asking me over and over again, relentlessly. I was confused and irritated so, I decided to make something up. I told them the guy I had a crush on was Brogan hoping they would never ask me about crushes again. The lunch bell sounded, concluding that conversation and saving me from more questions.