Hate the Player and the Game

chapter 13

"And even if I wasn't then what's it to you"? I asked testing him a little.

"Nothing, I just thought that if we talkin' now then that's important information that we need to know about each other". He was right because I wondered the same thing about him.

"Yes". I say. "Yes, I'm still a virgin".

"Why? You scared"? I didn't know the answer to that, but I still say,

"No, I'm not scared........I just have no reason to not be".

"Awww, I feel it. I don't force girls or pressure them into it. I just wait until they're ready".

"All boys say this exact same thing. How do I know that your serious"?

"Because it's me that your talking to".

"Okay, good answer, but um....it's my turn. Are you still a virgin"?

"Girl hell no".

"That's another thing that all boys say knowing good and goddamn well that they are". I laugh.

"Diamond I got expelled from my last school for fuckin' some girl". I say. "I lost my virginity at eleven. Been fuckin' ever since".

"Well you haven't fucked recently have you"? I asked curiously.

"Diamond, no..........with who"?

"I don't know......Ivory I guess".

"Bye".

"No.....no, I'm sorry don't hang up. I was joking".

"You better have been". He says. I smiled really hard almost cheesing. I really liked this boy. I had to tell him something or I was going to burst with all that I was keeping in.

"Cruze........I just have to say that I um.........well let me just say that on your first day you admitted that you liked me, now I gotta say that I do.....okay I do. I like you too". There was another long silence.

"Yeah, I've been feeling something between us.......it's so live. Like I can just feel that we-"

"Belong together". I say finishing his sentence.

"Yeah......how did you know that I was gonna say that"?

"I just..........felt it".

"Diamond, I know it's only been two days.....but seeing you at your mom's party a month back and now being at your school.....I think it's all a sign".

"A sign for what"?

"A sign telling' us that we're made for each other". I giggled at Cruze's words.

"I don't know. It's just something about you that I love so much". I laughed. "Your so different.  We have so much in common, and your just my type. I think about you all the time, I hate being away from you, and when you are near me, you make me so nervous because I'm always afraid that you'll reject me, and then you don't. Your hugs......they make me feel safe. You make me feel loved. I adore you when I look at you and the way you interact with people, and I just envy you. I envy you because your finally someone that I care about so much, and a boy at that". Oh no, I just poured out my feelings and confessed my heart to him. I was afraid of what he was going to say. I didn't mean to say all of that, but once one word slipped out, another slipped with it and they just kept coming.

"Me too". He says. "Every word".

"Okay, now that you know what I'm feeling' about you......tell me what you think".

"About what"?

"Oh so now you trynna be funny". I say. "But for real......be real with me Cruze".

"Diamond I feel like you the one for me.....okay. I feel that. That is what my heart is telling' me right now". I listened to Cruze and I thought about it.

"Mine too. My heart feels the same". I say.

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         "And you should've seen the way she was going off yesterday. That bitch had the nerve to step to me.......I can tell you right now that there would've been a memorial for Ivory Betcham in the auditorium today if Cruze didn't pull me away from her". I explain to Bryeneese while sitting in first period.

"Dang girl, you serious"? Brye asked.

"Yeah, I'm serious...........I'm tired of these hoes". I could feel Tyrone starring at me angrily. Ever since I blew him off for Cruze, he had been starting to act funny toward me lately. I spoke up louder so he could hear me. "And Cruze.....girl he's amazing. We stayed up all night last night just talking on the phone".

"And what did y'all talk about".

"Life". I sighed. "I could listen to him talk all damn day. His voice is just so sexy and comforting......and his hugs are like.....are like what you need if you wanna feel kept. You know what I mean"?

"No I don't because I don't have that with Kendrick". Brye says rolling her eyes. "All he likes to do is fuck just like all the other niggas in this school......you lucky D. You really are. I'm glad you didn't fall for Tyrone's ass".

"I almost did girl. I'm glad I didn't either". I looked over at him and he had gotten up and moved his seat. When the English teacher entered the room, I turned around in my seat. I think I have completed my mission. Tyrone was completely off my team now. Well not completely.