Life Changing

My story: the beginning

On the 24th of January 2013 the app Vine was for the first time in the App Store. Millions of people downloaded it, including Nash Grier and Hayes Grier. They posted a 6 second video of themselves dancing and became a worldwide trend on Vine. With 10 other people they started a group: Magcon. Tens of thousands of girls and boys were fan, me too.

In 2013, my grandpa's health was very bad. He had skin cancer and he was 88 years old. On 20 May (my mom's birthday) my grandpa shouted my nickname for me to me on the phone when I was at an important rehearsal for my big ballet performance. My parents told me that he could barely talk anymore. That touched me deep.
On 23 May my mom and I were crying on the couch because we knew my grandpa wouldn't live long anymore. I said: "I don't want him to die tomorrow. That is not fair!". My mom cancelled school for the next day so I could see him again and maybe say goodbye forever. The next day my mom got a call at 6 o'clock in the morning saying that my grandpa passed away. It was too late.
The funeral was 4 days later in the castel where my grandparents had their 50th anniversary while I danced for them in a big hall. I couldn't stop crying that whole day. I didn't go to school for 2 weeks and I didn't mourn the right way.
I miss him very much. We had a very strong connection.
A week after his death, on his bithday where he had to become 89, I performed with my ballet class at the big stage. I got very emotional afterwards because I wasn't dancing for the audience, my ballet teacher or myself, I was dancing for my grandpa whose in heaven.
I fell into a depression without anyone knowing. With a broken smile and a broken heart without a heartbeat.

When I bought my first smartphone I started to watch more YouTube videos and in November 2014 I discovered Exclamation Point YT. Two best friends, Daniel Edge and Paul Zimmer, were filming their unusual life. They are dorks and their hearts are big and filled with love and pranks on each other. I fell in love and my depression got less.

In December 2014 I went on Twitter to support everyone on another social media so they would know I exist and to let them know how much they care to me. I began as a girl without friends and a few followers. I was a freshman at Twitter. But after a half year of struggling with this loneliness, I got to know a girl of the same age as me: Madeline (Mady) aka GrierEurope on Twitter. She gave me hope in the endless supporting without a goal. I started to talk with her and I turned on her notifications.

Just 4 months later she tweeted: "RT if you want to be in a groupchat with other Nash fans." So there I RTed. I came in a group with some weirdly grown-up girls way older than me. After they talked about who they wanted to fuck most, I got out of the group. The second time Mady tweeted the same tweet, I came in another group with weird grown-up sexual humans. I got out the group. Mady tweeted it for the third timeand I thought: well, three times means lucky, right? And I was right. I met some nice, but shy girls from all over the world.