HunHan [Book 3]: Dealing With Oh Sehun [BoyxBoy]

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"Ayaw patalo ng bakat ko."

Nasipa ko yung pader, "Putangina, woah! Ready na ako magpintura! Kailangan ko matapos to ngayong araw! Woah, pucha! Saan ba ako maguumpisa?" pagiingay ko tapos nagsimula ng magpintura. Sakto lang din ang laki nitong magiging office ni Luhan for consultations. He's very own clinic here.

Bullshit. Hindi mawala sa isip ko. They had sex last night? Yun lang naman yun di ba?! They had sex. They just fcking had sex. Fck.

"Ayusin mo yan, Sehun!" sigaw ni Luhan pero hindi na ako sumagot. Oo wala akong karapatan magalit. Knowing they had sex and compared to what I did, I'm still a jerk. They're couples anyway but no. I just can't bear to think someone touched him, pulled him in and kissed him. It's pissing me off! I mean, real bad. "Tapusin mo yan ngayon. Hanggang 5pm ka lang. Gets mo?" aniya.

"I got it." I whispered.

"Wag ka namang ganyan babe. Kapagod kaya yan." sabad ni Kharin at napalingon ako. Niyakap nya si Luhan mula sa likuran. Back hugging him with a few kisses on his shoulder. "Ituloy nya nalang bukas kung hindi matapos ngayon. May bukas pa." I looked at them and Luhan met my eyes. It's just blank and black as if telling me; you're an asshole. I have somebody else to hug me.

"Tatapusin ko to dahil may usapan na kami ni Luhan." bulalas ko habang busy lang sa pagpipintura ng dingding. Para sa araw na to, kinancel ko lahat ng meetings. Gagawin ko to dahil gusto kong bumawi sa kambal at kay Luhan. Isa pa, Luhan won't allow me to see them if I didn't work for it. Ako ang tatay pero.. hindi ko sila pwedeng makita wherever I want to. I understand, I really do understand why Luhan is doing it.

Because I deserved it.

Because I'm such a asshole.

A bastard. A jerk. What else?

"Anong usapan?" Kharin asked.

"He wants to take the twins for dinner, I mean, the five of us." Napalingon ako ulit pero tinaasan lang ako ng kilay ni Luhan at inirapan din. I said, NO Kharin! At hindi ba pwedeng araw ko naman yun kasama sila? Kharin is with them all these fcking years! Tapos bukambibig na naman ni Hansol to! Paano pa ako mapapalapit sa kanya? SHIT.

"Uy sa buffet tayo. Matakaw kasi ang kambal at hindi pa mapili sa pagkain. Tatawagan ko lang si Mae para liguan yung dalawa at babalikan ko nalang sa bahay." Kharin quickly yanked his phone out of his pocket but Luhan stopped him. Quite relieved because he must've changed his mind over asking Kharin to join with us.

"Ako na tatawag sa labas."

I slumped my shoulder. Argh.

Lumabas agad si Luhan at naiwan kami ni Kharin. "Are you jealous?" he asked but I did not respond. Hell, I am!! After all these years, Luhan is still the one who owns me, who owns my heart. Kung hindi lang sana ako naduwag... I chose Luhan's safety, I let him be happy and freed him from the pain, from what I did and I followed Lolo. Naging maayos ang buhay ni Luhan nang wala ako. Nang hindi sya ginugulo ni Lolo but hell, I should've protected him. I should've. Argh.

I shouldn't have let him go.

"Do you want him back?"

"If I say yes, will you feel threatened?" I answered sternly, "I lost what's mine so I need to take him back." I added seriously.

I heard Kharin sighed. "Luhan is not a toy that you can just throw away and pick up whenever you want, Sehun. Whatever his decision is.. I will always respect him but as long as Luhan is with me," he gave me a flinty look in his eyes. "I want to make him happy. And besides, I don't think I can live forever with him." he added that shutted me up. "But I genuinely love him." he said.