Penny

A/N:Pretty sure there are at least A HUNDRED books with the title of Penny, Idk, I don't care, Too lazy to check actually. So Penny is the story I've been thinking about lately, just a few weeks ago, nothing big, just a simple story, and I've decided to give writing a try (again) here in Wattpad. Welp, hope you like it, hope you don't either, leave a hate comment it helps me out with my depression, really :I

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LEWIS JAMES

Hi I'm Lewis, I'm antisocial.

So if you want to be friends,

then

FUCK YOU!!

I'm just kidding, that's not how it works. Big deal, I've been dealing with this my entire life and I haven't solved this for 17 YEARS, but it's not like I care, I have too many shits to bother than myself, Each grade, the studies are getting harder and harder, I barely play video games so that I could have time studying, and not fail at any subject. Apparently that's how it all works, right?, don't fail at school and you'll get a good life ahead of ya, Sike!If I fail at ANY subject, That's a day where I don't get to eat. If it's two fails, then two days, If I fail multiple times, then I'M DEAD. If it's surprising for you, It's natural to me. I also happen to be ANTI-SOCIAL WITH MY PARENTS.

I barely talk to them, they're separated, I didn't know about it until weeks later mom surprised me with a letter saying "Sorry If I'm beginning to send you less and less allowance because it's hard to take care of two helpless kids at once"KIDS, I'm pretty sure I'm her only son, and I doubt that she had sex with my dad because they hate each other so much that they ALMOST KILLED EACH OTHER. So I found out my mom was married to another old fag, on facebook. I don't have an account, but I visit every time so I could hear some news from my shitty ass parents. And while my mom is married to a fat ass, my dad is in Hawaii drinking coconut juice beside two half-naked chicks.

And Of course I hate them, of course I wish somehow that they care more about me, but even if I don't even consider them as friends, I still love them. And that it's just a thing that pushes you to be a better person. I wouldn't want to grow up like them, I'd be more respectable. If I had a son, I wouldn't treat him like my parents treat me. IF I HAD, It's almost impossible for me to fall in love.

Yeah, I might die a virgin. Fml.

I wonder what will happen if I shoot myself in the head?

There's 99.99% chance that I'll die

but

There's 00.01% chance that I'll survive and remove the part that makes me anti-social.

Either way, both seems beneficial.

Oh but it needs time, effort and money, I don't have money for a gun, I don't have time to kill myself, and I can't waste my energy pulling a trigger since I have a lot of homework to do and studying. How can I solve this problem?you do the math.

I can always do it ANYTIME, but something is stopping me, literally. Why do I feel like I still have hope?, why do I feel like that something will come to me and solve everything one day?, Why do I still have this that keeps me going and keeps me living this dull, boring life?

It's funny, coz'

It all happened with one strange thing.

With Penny.