IT STARTED WITH ON A BREAK

GAME OVER

For a moment natahimik ako sa mga sinabi ni Jeron. How can he trust Mika that much? Bakit kaya nyang hindi maging selfish pag dating kay Mika?

"If you're doing this just to feed your ego please stop this bullshit Kiefer. Mika deserves genuine love and respect. I know pareho natin yun kayang ibigay sa kanya pero not in the same level, not in the same intensity."

"Don't be too confident Jeron."

"I'm not Im just marking my own territory. And one more thing Kiefer siguro naman hindi nya pipiliing sirain yung taong bumuo ulit sa kanya para lang buuin ulit yung taong sumira sa kanya. Hindi ako confident pero sigurado akong hindi tanga si Mika para bumalik pa sa'yo. Pero ikaw alam kong tanga ka at gagawin mo ang lahat makuha ulit sya dahil ayaw mo syang maging masaya. Sana for once, think about her happiness and set aside yours."

I was about to punch him pero biglang may dumating na mga staff ng Akari kaya napigilan ko ang sarili ko.

They told us na malapit na magstart yung event and we need to prepare so naghiwalay na kami ni Jeron to fix ourselves.

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Natapos ang event and I'm thankful na Jeron and I had only few interactions because fans ang priorities ng event. Atleast hindi naging mahirap for me to be nice to him. Sa dami ng pagpapanggap ko ayoko na idagdag yung pagiging mabait kay Jeron lalo na after ng mga sinabi nya sakin kanina.

Pumunta ako sa Araneta para makahabol pa sa panonood ng game. Our team is down by two sets. I also heard na hindi maganda yung laro ni Alyssa while Mika is playing inspired and good.

Alyssa is committing too many errors parang yung naging relasyon naming dalawa, puro mali. Masyadong kasing pinipilit, masyadong gigil na makabawi tulad ng gigil ko na makamove on kaya hindi naging maganda ang resulta.

Then there is that block from Mika. It says no entry, na para bang she will no longer let Alyssa enter her territory. Alam kong hindi ako yung court lalong mas alam kong hindi ako yung pinaglalabanan nilang dalawa dito. Well on Mika's side hindi talaga ako pero on Alyssa, everything is about me.

The guilt is killing me again lalo na tuwing makikita ko yung frustrations ni Alyssa every time she commits an error or for every point from the other side.

While on the other side I can see how happy Mika plays. She has nothing to lose, there's no pressure on her side. Hindi sya yung champion, she's just doing her best. Manalo o matalo sya may Jeron pa rin na magaantay sa kanya at mamahalin sya unlike Alyssa na pag natalo sya mawawala na rin ako sa kanya.

The game ended and they loss. 3 set victory for the Taft squad. Not the game everyone is expecting to be.

Hindi ko na pinuntahan sa dugout si Alyssa. The loss is too much to handle para dagdagan ko pa at ipamukha na natalo sya sa deal naming dalawa. Besides there are so many media people inside the Arena. I don't want them to ask me about that block by Mika since I do believe na wala namang issue dun. Mika just did her job, nothing personal.

Dumiretso ako sa bahay to think things over. I need time to plan things out. In a span of 1 year naging padalos dalos ako sa mga desisyon ko sa buhay and now is not the right time to do that again.

Wala pang isang oras na nagpapahinga ako sa loob ng kwarto, Alyssa came in.  That deal happens between the two of us only. Hindi pa alam ng kahit sino sa paligid naming dalawa. Kaya naman I was surprised to see a crying Alyssa with my disappointed Mama.

"Kiefer what do you think you are doing?!"
nakita ko yung inis sa mukha ni Mama. I don't know what Alyssa told her pero for sure pinalabas na naman nyang kawawa ang sarili nya. Something she's good at.