BABYGIRL | joyri

you know what i mean (don't you?)

it's six in the morning and i'm woken by the sound of your voice.

"yerim,why isn't your sister in her room?"

i rack through my brain for an excuse,i can't tell you yet.
i hold back the tears at the thought of my big sister and reply,

"she went on a trip with mom."

"oh too bad. well i have to go soon..so tell her i said hi."

i smile with a nod and open my arms.

"hug."

instead you out your arms around my waist and lift me up into your lap,kissing my forehead. my heart beat increases and i feel my cheeks getting hot.

"how did my babygirl sleep?"

now my cheeks are definitely on fire.

"i- slept well."

"aw you're so cute!,"
you gush,
"i want to have a little girl just like you one day!"

i feel my smile fade.

oh,that's what you meant.

you were treating like a baby,not your baby.

'a little girl'.

an audible laugh leaves my mouth.

how did i forget?

i'm not yours.