The Only Reason

Chapter One- Cause For Great Despair

Message from Chase:
Alright look, we had a great relationship and all, but I think it's time for us to break up.

I read the message again and again for an hour. Tears just kept sliding down my cheeks and sobs continually escaped my throat. How stupid could I be? I knew that this was going to happen sooner or later. We never even really talked, our relationship was basically just though text messaging. It still killed me inside, though, because some part of me was in love with him, or his texts.

I never really was fond of texting until I met him. It's the only way Chase and I could keep in touch and tell our secrets and feelings. But, after this, I vow to myself to never again have a relationship though text messaging. To me, texting is supposed to be a way to keep in touch, not the only way to keep in touch.

After a couple more minutes of reading the text to myself and digesting what it meant, I got the nerve to respond.

Message From Lacey:
You're right. It was my fault to think you of all people would be dedicated enough to wait for me to come back to the states so we could see each other again. It was my fault because I knew this would happen, yet I went along with it anyway. It was all my fault because I fell in love with you, but you obviously don't give a care. So, go enjoy your life. Just know that you were the cause for great despair in my life. It'll go away soon enough, though. Thx for nothing... </3 :(

I re-read the message to make sure I said everything I needed to say. My thumb hovered over the send button for a long time; I was scared of what he would reply. "Why should you care? He obviously doesn't care about you! You made that clear in your message!" I thought. My head could be pretty smart when it wanted to be. Swallowing hard, I hit the send button and watched my message go through.
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After I took a shower, dried my hair, and put it in a messy bun, I flopped onto my bed and turned my phone on. I stopped breathing when I saw what was on my lock screen. I went into my messages and read what Chase responded.

Message From Chase:
Lace, I'm sorry. I did care, but you've been gone for so long. And there's this other girl... I'm sorry, babe :/

This was really what it came down to: another girl. She was probably gorgeous or funny, she just probably had everything I didn't. Another thing that got to me was that he said that I had been gone for so long. He knew that I lived in Australia, I told him I was just visiting my dad for a month or two before I went back to Australia to finish school. He couldn't possibly act so surprised.

Message From Lacey:
First off, how could you act so surprised? You knew when we met that I was only in the states for a couple of months before I had to come back here. And second off, there's another girl? The nerve you have. Just yesterday you were telling me you missed me and to visit you so we could hang out.

I hit the send button and waited to see what he had to say to that.

"Honey, I'm home!" yelled my mum.

"Hi, mum," I replied quietly. Suddenly, I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Before I had time to look like I was studying, my mum was already in the doorway.

"You're supposed to be studying for your exams, Lace," said my mum looking pale and exhausted.

"Sorry, it's Chase," I said with no emotion in my tone.

"Awe, okay. You two are just-"

"Mum, he broke up with me..." I interrupted, tears welling up in my eyes again. Gosh, I'm such a baby.

"Oh, hun, I'm so sorry," she walked over to me and gave me a side hug. My mum and I were very close; we were more like sisters. "Do you feel like showing me the messages?"