Control

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I can't tell anyone. He promised me that if I did he would find out and kill me. I want to escape this but I have to do it on my own. I just have to keep pretending that everyone thing is normal.
My name is Hayden Matthews and I have experienced domestic violence since senior year of high school. This is my story.
Homecoming was approaching and I didn't have a date yet. I wanted someone to ask me but it didn't seem like that was ever going to happen. I wanted to ask my crush, Jake Thompson but I was terrified of getting rejected. At lunch my best friend Megan sat with me and went on about her homecoming date Jacob. He was a nice kid and Megan seemed to be happy with him, so I was happy for her. A few moments pass and Jake walked over to our table. My heart started beating fast and I felt like I was sweating. He asked to pull me aside for a moment, privately. He pulled me to the side and asked if I had a date to homecoming. I told him no. "I was actually hoping you would ask me," I spoke through my thoughts. I didn't realize what I had just told him. Jakes eyes lit up and he asked me to the dance. I started freaking out on the inside. This was the first real date I had to a school dance, last year I went with a bunch of my friends who didn't have dates either.
I walked back over to the lunch table and told Megan. She was excited that we both had dates to homecoming. She came over that day after school so we could talk about the dance. Megan described the perfect dress and the most amazing shoes. I started looking on my laptop at dresses. I found this beautiful, long, light blue dress with silver detailing and knew that I had to have it. I ordered it offline with the money I had saved from my birthday. Megan ordered a long, strapless, pink dress that would go perfectly with her silver pumps. The Dance was only two weeks away and I couldn't wait to see Jake all dressed up in his tuxedo.
Today, Jake asked for my number so we could talk more often. Things are moving along quite nicely but I'm almost certain that it's not going to end up the way I want it to. Jake is a jock. I'm a good girl. Jake is on the football team. I'm on a swim team. Jake has short brown hair. I have Long blonde hair. Jake is 6'1. I'm 5'8. Jake and I don't have much in common, there is no way it could turn into something more.
I got home from school early that day since I only had two afternoon classes. My phone went off. I looked at it and saw that Jake had texted me.
Jake:"Hey, wanna go out with me tonight?"
Hayden:"Sure, that sounds great."
Jake:"Ok. Meet me at HotSkates at 7."
Hayden:"See you then."
Jake just asked me out. I ran to the bathroom and took a quick shower. I got out and threw on a pink bandeau, a white muscle tee and some skinny jeans. I went back into the bathroom and applied some quick makeup and brushed my hair out. I put on my black converse and grabbed my wallet. I headed to HotSkates and started playing the night over in my head the way I hoped it would go. When I got there it was finally seven o'clock. I sat down at a table and looked around for Jake. My phone went off.
Jake:"Hey, sorry I'm going to be about ten minutes late."
Hayden:"Okay. I'm here. I saved us a table."
Jake:"Thanks."
Ten minutes went by and Jake came in looking as if he had ruined everything. I walked up to him and asked if he wanted to eat first. Jake replied,"I think we should skate for a little while first. What size skates do you wear?"
"Okay, I wear sevens." Jake walked over to the counter and got our skates. We put them on and began skating. I was very good at skating because I used to go every weekend in middle school. I could tell Jake didn't have much experience. "Would you like some help? I could show you how." Jake smiled."This is really embarrassing but yes please." I grabbed his arm and put it over my shoulders and held onto his waist.
An hour passed by and we were getting hungry. Jake asked me if I wanted to eat. We returned our skates and got into his car. We left and headed to Icy's. We got there a little while later and sat down at the picnic table. Jake walked up to the window and ordered our ice cream. He brought it back to the table and we ate and talked. Jake asked me about school and my family. I asked him about the football team and his family. At the end of the night he offered me a ride home. When we got to my house he parked for a moment and told me how much fun he had tonight. I asked him if he would want to go out again sometime. He said yes and leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. I thanked him for the ride and walked up to my house. As I was walking I got this feeling that I should've kissed him. I turned around a ran down to his car. I stuck my head in the driver side  window and kissed him on the lips. He put his hands on my face and kissed back. I pulled away and ran into my house. That was the best date I had ever been on and damn was he a good kisser too.