If I could let you go
let my memories of you be ripped from my chest
if I could stop the rain
and curl up with the pain
held deep inside it'd be,
just you,
and me.
I wish that I could believe it,
but I don't know you,
I hate you,
no,
I hate me,
I hate how I'm stuck at the bottom of a ravine,
and I can't get out,
the walls were made of blood.
Blood from my wrists,
blood from my veins,
blood from my heart,
which aches.
I feel a pain that I can't explain,
it hurts inside,
to be alive,
I hate this mess
but what can you do,
I guess,
I've tried to sleep,
to not even care,
but when I turn around
and see you over there
I know that I can't
though I'm seeing ghosts
I'm insane
I belong away from all I love
I hate my morbid mangled mind
I hate how I can't keep track of time
I hate how everything that's wrong is mine.
I hate how poems like this are so long
I hate my life
I want a refund.
but that in itself isn't fun
my life can't end
thats not very fair
I hate it even more that you're not here
I hate how I miss you
and miss me too.
I hate how I'm writing and writing for nothing
nothing but you..
but are you nothing?
No, I just don't know you yet
you're invisible,
or not quite here yet,
but I miss you anyway
YOU ARE READING
Not Here Yet
PoetryI'm not sure what this poem is actually about, it's kinda morbid, but I hope you like it anyway, and if you don't that's cool too.