Awakened at Saturn Awake

The Forced Beginning

Brecken

I wasn't supposed to be here. Of course not, this was not part of the plan. But, what plan? A plot, a ploy, perhaps. No! This was just supposed to a trip. Yet, it turned into more of a stumble, a fall into the endless, hopeless chasm that is Saturn Awake. A trap! But, a trap not set by a who, however, conjured by a what. A feeling? The universe? A plot?

There I go with the plot again. I wanted to believe all this happened because some great force pushed me into the lower end of the scale. Yes, maybe I was in denial. Yes, this could be all my fault. That's something I have to accept. This was not fate, it was just me, making dumb decisions. Me making choices that ended up with me tumbling down a bottomless pit, gripping on to the craziest ideas I could.

That's what Saturn Awake does to you. It gets you thinking of higher powers and the meaning of life. Stupid, idiotic trash like that. But, every once in a while, a whisper will catch you and flip you back to a time where you did not think of illusions and tricks. Saturn Awake will twist your hauntings, your faint memories of not caring about the world. Memories of when the world did not cloud your every thought, making insufferable ghosts. No, and not ghosts like Casper. Holograms that portray happy scenes, but fade to black dust as soon as you try to clutch the joy!

I'm rambling, trying too hard to make sense of the desultory confusion of the world I live in. "Live", more like plummet. Yet, I'm still alive! Breathing heavily as the pounding drum in my head, but alive! Hope, possibly, could save us! Save us all!