Hacking into my Hyper-linked Heart

Chapter 13- Too Slow to Join The Dots

What I really wanted to write was 'I'm not okay with you replying late to me. Do you really understand how I felt all week, not being able to talk to you? I missed communicating with you, I missed arguing with you, most of all I missed you.' But I was a coward to write that, so I guess Sally was right, I am a coward.

I settled the laptop on the table and made my way to the kitchen to help Sally or more like sit on my ass and look at her do the hard work. "So," She raised her eyebrow at me as she stirred the minced meat in the pan.

"So." I repeated.

"Well what did you reply?" She asked impatiently.

"That it was fine and I didn't really notice." I shrugged my shoulders.

"WHAT?!" She asked in shocked as she stood frozen in the same spot.

"I said..." "I know what you said," She said irritably. "I'm saying WHY did you say that? Just few minutes ago you were complaining about him not messaging and when he does, you lie to him saying 'oh no Chris, I didn't notice we didn't talk'" She tried to mimic my voice.

"I do not sound like that" I said clearly offended.

"That's not important," she narrowed her eyes and pointed at me with her wooden spoon. "Why did you reply that?"

"I didn't want to sound like an obsessed clingy woman. He would bloody run a mile if he knew how I felt." I said this while looking down at my hands making sure I did not make eye contact with her. I was clearly embarrassed with expressing my feeling vocally.

 "Myra, let him know. It's not like he knows your name or how you look like... so just tell him."

 "Yes that's right; he thinks my name is Lisa." I said with a sigh. "I forgot my fake surname" I scrunched my nose as I tried to rank my brain to see if I could remember it. I shrugged my shoulders "It doesn't matter I'll check my profile later for the surname. Anyway where was I on?" I asked Sally innocently when I suddenly remembered. "Oh yeah, it's not about that, it's just I am not making a fool out of myself. What am I going to say, 'Oh forget about the previous message it was all a lie. I have been overreacting this last week since we last chatted because I thought maybe you forgot me or whatever...' I do not think so" I said while I looked at Sally walking around the kitchen picking dishes up and placing them on the table.

Sally picked up the pasta dish and placed it on the table and turned around. "Do whatever you want," she said as she sat down on the chair. She was clearly fed up with my incapability of chatting to a guy. I walked to the table and sat down as I took my plate from Sally and stabbed my fork in the pasta.

"This is the reason why I never dated or thought about getting it on with anyone. It's so annoying and time consuming." I said with annoyance as I kept stabbing my poor pasta. "What am I meant to say or behave like? It's so confusing, I hate this feeling I know I just have a stupid crush on him but it so damn hard. Imagine if I ever fall in love, OMG, that would be thousand times worse" I whined like a baby.

Sally placed her hand on mine and looked at me sternly. "Stop stabbing your pasta, that will not solve any of your problems."

"I know" I sighed and took a big bite.

"I can imagine you falling in love and over thinking about everything" Chuckled Sally.

"Yeah I guess I will," I said as I thought about Sally's statement.

"How is your research on Cole's Limited going?"

"Well, I know now that Cole Limited is an international strategic market research consultancy for other business around the world. They assist businesses to identify and realise growth opportunities by providing information and insight through a combination of their strategic methods and equipment." I said proudly.

 "Wow that's great" Beamed Sally.

 "I know, I rehearsed all that, just in case they ask" I chuckled.

"You do know some background information on the owner of the company, right?"I looked at her confused. "You know Ethan Cole" She said impatiently.

I rolled my eyes and sarcastically responded "Oh yeah him, the almighty Ethan Cole, how can I forget his mesmerising exotic blue eyes and his silk black ha-" I didn't even get to finish my sentence because something in my head clicked on and the realisation hit me. I looked at Sally with shock written all over my face and my cutlery that was held between my tight fingers few seconds ago slipped through my fingers with ease and hit my plate with a loud clank.

Sally looked at me with concern, "What's wrong Myra? You're pale as a ghost."

I couldn't respond, I could hear every single word Sally was saying but I just couldn't reply. My brain couldn't even form a sentence together; even if it could I know for sure that my throat would restrict any voice to come out. I sat there not saying a word, I don't think I can even blink, I just sat there frozen like time had stopped and I let the revelation that I unfolded few seconds ago sink into me. I don't know how long it was maybe it was few seconds later, maybe minutes later, maybe days later when I responded. Okay I'm being dramatic now it surely wasn't days later. Any way's back to my reaction......The only way I could react at that moment was I put my face in my hands and screamed my lungs out until I felt better. Sally was looking at me like I have gone crazy, well from anyone's perspective I would look like I just escaped a mental institution. After a minute of screaming my breathing was heavy and my chest moved up and down in a constant speed.

Sally hesitantly touched my shoulder and whispered, "Are you okay?"I took my hands away from my face and looked at Sally.

"No!"

"What's wrong?" She asked scared of my reaction. "What's wrong you ask me? I'll tell you what's wrong. ETHAN COLE IS THE STRANGER FROM THE CLUB!' I yelled.

She furrowed her eyebrows and looked at me confused "What are you on about? What stranger from the club?"

I groaned in frustration and told her everything from the club to the time I bumped into him in the cafe.

"You didn't even care to tell me?" She shrieked.

"Well I just thought it was some random stranger that would not cross my path ever again so I thought there is no point telling you," I explained.

"Well you got that wrong. You bumped into him in a cafe and now you will be have to see him at your interview," She chuckled at my misfortune.

"This is no laughing matter," I growled at her and then her words sank into me and I started panicking. "OMG! what am I going to do? What am I going to say? I knew I had seen him but my mind was to bloody slow to join the dots"

"Shhh calm down" Sally assured me.

"What am I going to do?"

"Well you can come up with an excuse"

"Sally what excuse? I have never been through this before so how could I just magically come up with an excuse?" I asked. "Life without guys and any of this is so much easier," I groaned as I put my face in my hands, wanting the floor to swallow me up so I wouldn't have to face Ethan Cole. I looked at Sally, "This is all yours and my mother's fault," I whined.

"Stop whining you big baby, I just got an idea." She clapped her hands and smiled at me.I don't know why but I have a really bad feeling about Sally's idea.