Do you know what it's like to be numb,
To far gone, the dark has already come,
I want to remember the Days of pain,
Just to remind myself I'm inhumane
Just An animal in a cage, no escape,
Cause I'm as numb as novacaine,
Stab my heart , rape my mind,
There's no love left to find,
My music has no more groove,
My body doesn't move, am I even real?
Crack my code, make me feel,
These are the words in my screams,
A life of nothing, is worse than a life time of hurting, I'm a walking contradiction,
For others I'm their drug, their addiction
Is this life fiction, is this life fantasy ,
If you can't be alive then you'll just slowly die, I can't lie, why should I survive?
If I've never felt alive
When you can't even love yourself enough to end it all, when standing feels like a fall,
You kiss, touch, hold, cry, and get lost in your head, only to know you should be dead,
Why try to survive if you have never been alive? Beneath all your smiles and dead pan laughter, hides the soul deaths after,
Everyday you just try to find it again,
To fill your hole, where your heart should go, Dying won't save me, and living just reminds me, The basic human emotions, are drowning me, they're deep as an ocean,
I can barely comprehend, and no longer pretend, I don't want to be left behind for my demons to find,
But in the end I wouldn't even care.
I cut to remind myself I'm still here,
And bleed for the thrill of the fear,
I have a disease for which there's no cure,I want to die in a burning sky,
Let my fire light the way,
The closer I get to the otherside,
The more I want to wash away in the strongest tide, I want to be the worlds painless sacrifice,
I love all you guys, and this game we played, but if I could fly away ,I'd have never stayed
Everyday is a journey, that's the joke my therapist told me,
she said to change I have to discover me
Don't you see the irony?
I'm like an open road, theres nothing to see, the world is cold blooded, frozen as the north pole,
Even reptiles still have a soul,
I just want to feel, how much louder must I scream, why is it all just a fucking dream,
Looking to a god that's not answering my prayer, I guess he didn't even care,
Am I a savior ? If so I'd have saved her
I can't wash away the blood on my hands, all my friends will be dead, It's not just my head,
Everyone I've known and I'm the only one that life didn't take away, this is to make me pay, I'm a killer , I'm a killer , I'm a killer, they're dead cause they've known me, why can nobody else fucking see?
I'm not crazy I'm not crazy I'm not crazy
Recycle, rinse, repeat, I march to that beat, only for it to remind me,
They are all the stars, the stars, the stars I tell their stories in my scars, I see their faces passing by like cars,
I don't belong here, i wish I could melt into the sun , then they'd all stare
for once I'd finally have a little flare,
I wish I could freeze like a statue,
For once I'd finally be what I've been all along, life got me wrong,
I want to die in a burning sky,
Let my fire light the way,
The closer I get to the otherside,
The more I want to wash away in the strongest tide, I want to be the worlds painless sacrifice,
I love all you guys, and this game we played, but if I could fly away ,I'd have never stayed
YOU ARE READING
The Beast Within Me
PoetryThese are original song lyrics and poems that I've written over the years. There's also just some random writings thrown in as well. All of these writings are about overcoming demons and adversity.
