My Rebel Love Story (Ashley Purdy)

~One~ Typical Monday

I felt my eyes open to brightness called sunlight. GAH! FUDGE DAMN YOU SUN! I forgot to close my curtains last night before I went to bed -.-

I did my usual catlike stretch like I did every morning topping it off with multiple yawns. I yawn a lot. I sighed and pulled my short and stout legs from under my black purple and white checkerboard patterned comforter and dark purple fluffy soft comfortable sheet and onto the black fluffy carpeted floor still laying down on the bed. I looked over at the glowing red digits on my clock beside my bed. 5:00 am. I have to go to that hellhole again.

I can't wait until winter break starts after this week is over then I don't have to deal with being slammed into lockers and crap.

I groaned and rolled off the bed onto the carpet. Mmm this feels nice.

I just need some music and I'll be in a fucking lala land!

But I have to get ready for school sadly.

With a whimper I get up and drag myself into the bathroom and turn hot water on in the shower. Stripping from my pyjamas I step into the warm waterfall of relief.

I love showers. I clised my eyes and sighed feeling the hot water run through my hair and soak it. I lean against the cold tile wall and whimpered softly. I've been depressed most of my life considering all I knew about was school, worrying about being beaten for screwing up, and drugs and alcohol.

My real parents are druggies and they always told me how I was an accident and it was my fault they're like that now and beat me senseless every otger night.

My eyes were drawn to my razor.

'Do it it's been a week do it Leda!' A voice in my head growled to me.

'No maybe tonight'

'No do it now and bring it to school since some girls made you cry Friday and you couldn't cut'

I decided to do it. I grabbed it's cold body and pulled it to my thighs.

I shut my eyes and hissed as it made it's way across it.

Several more and I decided that it was enough for this morning.

I sat it dwn watching blood go down the drain.

I looked at the fresh new carved word across my upper thigh 'fat'

I washed my body and hair and shaved. I turned off the water and stepped out wrappimg a towel around my body.

I walked to the fogged up mirror and frowned.

Bringing my finger to the fog I wrote 'mute' in it. I was mute and never made a sound in front of anyone or talked, not even Chris and Amy (adopted parents)

I dried my body bent forward removing my towel from my body to my hair and dried it a bit.

I dried the back of my neck and back before moving back up and wrapping the towel around myself again. I dried the top of my hair again.

I hissed feeling the carved word and cuts start to sting.

I brushed through my wet hair and sat the brush diwn.

I changed into black skinny jeans, Asking Alexandria Reckless and Relentless shirt, and black hightop converse.

I plugged in the hair dryer and dried my hair before plugging in my black flat iron straightener.

My hair is layered and I have a fringe so when I first straighten it it looks kind of big.

I finished straightening my long black hair and unplugged it leaving it to cool.

I made a thin frame of black eyeliner around my big brown eyes.

I got them from my mother. It was my dad who forced her into drugs after I was born and forced her to beat me and get drunk and high.

She was never tge one who beat me it was my dad, she was high or drunk and couldn't realize what was going on. When dad wasn't around and she wasn't drunk or high she would be nice to me and hug me and tell me she was sorry about bruises and cuts and wounds I'd gotten from recent beatings. She felt bad and teared up whenever dad would pin me to the bed, ground, or wall and beat me.

My mom was the one who told me to run away and never come back for my safety. Before I left she gave me her necklace she loved to wear that her sister gave her which died in a car accident when I was five.

I wear it to this day in memory of my aunt and my mother.

I grabbed the small 'J' charm in my palm and kissed it. 'J' was for Julia which was my aunt's name.

I won't eat today. I need to lose sone weight.

I grabbed my phone seeing it was almost 7.

I need to get to school before the jocks and cheerleaders come and push me to the concrete and spit on me like they did yesterday.

I sighed and turned of my bathroom light and grabbed my big black jacket and pulled it on and grabbed my Black Veil Brides beanie and pulled it on making my fringe fluff out under it over my eyes. Grabbing my phone and plugging in my earbuds to the headphone jack I pulled on my black two shoulder backpack which hung down a bit past my butt.

I opened my door and trotted down the stairs hoping to avoid Amy and her pleas for me to eat breakfast.

I was thankful to see she wasn't in the kitchen.

I saw a note and read it:

I went Christmas shopping. Chris is at work of course -Amy :) ♥

Sighing in relief I opened the door and put in my earbuds and walked down the street to the

campus turning on 'Coffin' by Black Veil Brides and blared it.

I opened the school doors and walked in pulling off my beanie and walking to my locker and put in my combination opening it seeing some of my sketches I've done and some lyrics and quotes from movies and bands and one from a scientist.

'Never give in never back down' I read to myself and smiled.

I hope I can meet them soon since I'm now Andy Biersack's adopted sister.

"Hey faggot" slut #1 snickered as the hals began to fill.

"Emo" slut #2 said in her fake nasally voice. (Ew so annoying)

"Fatass" one spat. I'm curvy and short and I'm called fat. I'm not eating!

"Virgin"

"Mute bitch"

I rolled my eyes and stuck my earbud back in and pushing their sickening spray tanned bodies away.

I heard them smacking their gum and click their hells and scoffing walking away and to slut town known as 'the dance team practice' they can't even dance well.

The others besides that group are truly talented.

Maybe they can't with all that plastic and fake tan shit XD Fuck I just made myself laugh.

I walked to homeroom seeing some jocks and rolled my eyes sitting in my seat hearing some insults shouted at me I'm sure but I couldn't hear thanks to 'We Stitch These Wounds' blaring into my hearing.

Fuck my life.

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I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever. It's just a pain in the ass to update and write on a phone.

I can't wait until I can use the computer again. ... :( just like Leda....fuck my life.

Listening to: Beautiful Remains by Black Veil Brides