Tori Kelly Imagines (GxG)

blackhole of heartbreak (tb chapter)

" Oh, I'm in love with you and you will never know,
But if I can't have you I'll walk this life alone
Spare you the rising storms and let the rivers flow"...

Your pov

Its been a month

A month since tori and that boy who's name idek have been dating

I just live in this constant feeling that, idek what it is, theres no real way to describe it really

Maybe hurt, disappointment in myself, jealousy

Its a feeling that follows me day and night in my stomach

Knowing that someone is giving tori everything i could..i should be giving to her

So today at lunch i decided to maybe have a conversation with this kid

Maybe he's a genuine, nice guy, maybe then i wont feel so bad

I walked over to this boy with black hair and had a dimple aswell..like tori

"Hey, your tori's boyfriend right? Im y/n"

I tried to say in the politest nicest way possible

After all its kind of hard since he's sort of dating the girl i love..

"Yeah..im ryan..and"

"Oh um hey so i just wanted to say hi and maybe talk for a bit"

"About what"

"Just get to know you a bit, you know since your dating my best friend an-"

"What do you want to know about me? Tori is hot and maybe if im lucky i can get some ama right"

He smirked in an annoying form that took every muscle in my body not to kick him in the jaw

"Wait, you only like tori because she's... attractive?"

"Whats it to ya anyway? Are u her secret lesbian lover or something?"

He laughed

Thats when i had enough of this guy

I grabbed him by the shirt, and hard, i wasnt thinking

I looked him dead in the eyes

"Tori is my fucking best friend, if you hurt her in any way shape or form, im coming after you, i genuinely care about her, unlike you, just watch your back"

"Shit why you gotta get so defensive"

She smirked, he thinks im kidding doesnt he

"as a matter of fact, your pretty fine yourself too, ssss damn ma' "

He bit his lip and pulled me in closer by the waist and was about to put his hands on my butt when-

"Y/N"

Tori stood there, surprise in her voice and expression

"Oh hey tori"
Said ryan calmly as if he didnt just say everything he had said 20 seconds ago

"I was just showing my new friend y/n over here how my um..salsa dance class routine thing goes yeah, wasnt i, y/n?"

I stood there, trying to hold in the tears, the thought of the man that tori was with, the fact that this could hurt her, hurt me, and bad

"Yeah..yeah he was"

"Oh sorry y/n for a minute there i though-"

"-its fine"

"Victoria can i ask you something"

"Yes ofc"

"Are you happy?"

"Um yes why"

"Great..thats all that matters"

I managed to get out with my voice shaking, i ran away as fast as i could so tori wouldn't see me like this

I dont know why i didn't tell her there and then what kind of a guy ryan was

I just want her to get hurt

Shes my everything

im glad she's happy

I really am

But the truth is

I'd cross the ocean for her for the rest off my life if i had to

I love her..

"Don't you see what I can bring
Can't keep this beating heart at bay
Set my midnight sorrow free,
I will give you all of me
Just leave your lover, leave him for me.
Leave your lover, leave him for me..."

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Tori's pov

i got out of class ready and eager to go spend some time with y/n, i really deeply miss her company

I feel like everythings changed since i started dating ryan

The truth is

Im having a hard time trying to accept my sexuality

I know i love y/n with all of my being
But sometimes its just hard to say it

Even more since we've been friends since we were kids

I just dont want to ruin that special bond we have together

Maybe i should just forget about it, i know y/n doesnt nor will ever feel the same way about me

Ryan is simply a way for me to move on and forget about what can never be..

I walked over to where ryans locker is to say bye to him before y/n and i went to go spend time together..

When i-

No way

When i..

When i see him with his arms on y/n's waist..

Y/n had a look in her eyes, i knew something was wrong

"Y/N"

I said

I stood there with a blank epression, not knowing how to react to this

"Oh hey tori"

"I was just showing my new friend y/n over here how my um..salsa dance class routine thing goes yeah, wasnt i, y/n?"

"Yeah.. yeah he was.."

I heard shakiness in her voice

"Whats wrong with her.." i thought

" Oh sorry y/n for a minute there i though-"

"-its fine"
She said cutting me off

"Victoria can i ask you something"
Her y/e/c colored eyes started getting wet

"Yes ofc"

"Are you happy?"

"Um yes why"

I wasn't

Honestly i wasnt

What i had just said was a complete lie

"Great..thats all that matters"

"Y/N WAI-"

She managed to get out and ran off before i could say anything else..

something wrong, really wrong, and i need to find out what it is

Im in love with my best friend..

"You'll never know the endless nights, the rhyming of the rain,
Or how it feels to fall behind and watch you call his name.."

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