Just like Him

Prologue

Since college days.

The day I met him.

The day I knew his full name.

The moment I discovered that he likes someone.

The hurtful times that I observed him falling for her.

The way he looked at her from a distance.

The expression he wore when we lost her.

All those times, I was also in deep shit.

Ang sakit sa pakiramdam.

Alam nyang alam ko lahat. He's observant after all.

Ako ang unang nakaalam na may gusto sya kay Kara kasi hindi ako manhid na tao.

Masyado akong assumera to the point na ako lang ang nagpapasakit sa sarili ko.

Binibigyan ko ng meaning lahat ng simpleng gestures. Kaya ang ending, ako ang napapahiya, nasasaktan at iniiwan.

Malinaw na nyang sinabi na wala syang gusto sa akin.

Sinampal nayun sa mukha ko, ang tanga ko pa rin.

Minahal ko pa rin.

May kasalanan din naman sya.

Bakit kasi ang gwapo nya? Alam naman nyang ang hilig ko sa gwapo eh!

Bakit ang bait nya kahit ayaw nyang ipakita ng diretso? Alam ba nyang natuturn on ako sa mga lalaking ganyan?

At bakit kasi pasok yung first name nya sa mga ideal guy names ko?!

Sumuko na ako sa kanya eh. Matagal na.

Kasi alam kong wala akong pag-asa.

Pero ayaw talaga ng puso ko. Kaya hinayaan ko nalang.

At least my mind's at peace even though my heart isn't.

That's what I thought.

Until someone messed up my mind.

And someone I loved for so long, since the day I was born, hurt me so bad.

In just a blink of an eye, bigla nalang akong ni-reto ng pinakamamahal kong Daddy sa isang lalaking di ko kilala.

Porke't anak ng business partner nya, expect nyang papatulan ko na?

Yes. He's good-looking.

Mahilig ako sa gwapo, oo. Yun ang una sa listahan ng mga bet ko.

But right now, I'm not in a state to be happy.

My parents divorced and my Dad changed a lot after that. Daddy's girl ako noon kaya sobra akong nasaktan.

Ang Mommy ko, parang hindi na ako pinapakialaman ever since nag-divorce sila ni Dad.

My life's a mess right now and you expect me to fall in love or date with someone in that state?

Well, I fell in love once. And I'm still in love with that guy named Earth.

But too bad. Unfortunately. Bad luck. He doesn't like me back.

My Dad persuaded me to date his business partner's son.

That would be a great escape to my feelings for Earth. I can divert my now-messed-up life into enjoying these dates.

But I think that wouldn't work.

Especially when he started saying that I'm special to him even though he doesn't like me the way I do.

I took that message to heart.

He doesn't know how to sugar-coat his words kaya totoo yung sinabi nya.

Totoo nga ba?

Bakit gan'on?

Matapos nyang sabihin yun, wala paring pagbabago sa trato nya sa akin.

Nag-assume ako na ba ka maging close na kami sa isa't isa pero ang assuming ko lang talaga.

"Hindi ko sasabihin kasi hindi ako nagseselos at di ko sya type. Wag mo ring sabihing defensive ako, inunahan ko lang kayo baka kasi mag-assume na naman eh, hirap na."

Those exact words from him keep on replaying in my head every time I saw him or whenever I think about him.

Ang sakit lang eh. Hashtag dobleng sampal.

Nalulungkot ako sa twing maiisip ko yan pero may isang taong di ko inakalang makakapaggaan ng loob ko.

Great Johansen. Ang anak ng business partner ni Dad.

One night, I was reconsidering if I'll date him or not.

Because he's so mabait. Gentleman pa at sweet. The Prince charming type of a guy.

But that exact night, I received a text message.

[Where are you?]

Simpleng text, walang pangalang binaggit. Pero nagkakarera na mga bituka ko.

Shit ka, Jeyden Earth Gonzaga.

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Author's Note:

Hello old and new readers of 'Just Like Him'.

Because of my 7 year hiatus on Wattpad, I am going to make some revisions for each chapter one by one. But rest assured that no major editing of plot will be made, just few grammatical errors and paraphrasing.

I am very thankful for all of your understanding. I aspire to become a better version of myself and I hope I can prove it through my writing :)

Thank you and Welcome everyone !