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Chapter 21 -guilt-

My mind was blank, my body numb, and my head in pain. I don't know where I am, but that's no surprise. I can't tell if I'm asleep or awake, but it's unnaturally dark either way. I can't hear much, there's this soft white noise though and it's driving me insane. I can't quite make out what's making it. I just want to break the damn thing! Why am I still laying here like this? Why haven't I got up... Or even tried to get up? I don't think I'm dead. Jen said "wake up" so I'm guessing I'm awake...?
I feel to arms wrap around me, picking me up. The person starts walking and I could hear a faint creek sound of a door I believe. When they brought me through the door I felt a wave a coldness hit my body. I think I had a rag covering my face, because it kept moving when they carried me, and they would quickly put it back in place. Somethings not right here. I could sorta hear the sound of leaves and twigs cracking under their foot. I heard them open another door, but when they brought me into the room I recognized the scent of it.
It's my room.
They laid me down on my old bed, and pulled the scratchy covers over my freezing body.
The person pulled the rag off of my face.
It was a woman.
She had beautiful blonde hair, pulled into a bun. She was wearing a pure, white, long lab coat and it had a name tag on it.
Ava Paige
So... That's Ava? Who the hell is this woman to me?

"Y/n, hunny I'm sorry for all that has happened to you. Hopefully it will all be over soon enough. I love you." She said with a soft voice, she started to walk out of my room.
I had so many questions that are unanswered.

Some reason I just sat there, doing nothing.
I felt completely guilty... Though I don't know why, I just do. I feel like I need to say sorry.
To who? I did something terrible. But what..?