Thrive

Part One - You're not worthy

Dear ex lover,

I understand you want back into the life we lived, the one where days never seemed to end and you found lights in my eyes...

but you are not allowed nor worthy of the life I now live. You tore, scratched, and ripped my heart into a million pieces. For days my tears swallowed me whole as you lusted for another girl who was blonde and bright blue eyed. The opposite of everything I was.

The heartache that followed me around almost killed me, but you never cared about me. you just wanted to do everything you could possibly do to me so you could brag to your friends about it while I cried.

When I said no, you thought yes.
and it scared me half to death.
no means no.
it never means yes.
but how could you know that?
you stupid boy.
you coward.
you arrogant prick.
you took the thing I may never be able to own again.
you to my choice.
my choice.
sweet choice.
no longer mine.

♧
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♤

For Jacob.

love, a very sad girl.