IT STARTED WITH ON A BREAK

SPACE

"Im not doing anything. What do you want me to do? Convince him na wag yun gawin? Eh you should me the want to do that. Alyssa may I just remind you pinili ka nya over me"

"Mika hindi naman ako yung pinili nya over you, yung pangrap nya yung pinili nya nagkataon lang na kasama ko sa package deal ng pangarap nya"

"So you are doing this kasi ayaw mong mawala rin sayo whatever you have right now dahil package deal kayo?"

"Mika I love him. Nagmahal ka rin so alam mo yung nararamdaman ko"

"Unrequited love sucks Alyssa. Oo nagmahal ako pero I made sure na nagmahal ako ng taong mahal din ako. Sana bago mo pinasok yan alam mo ang consequence nyan. I guess the convenience of loving you whether it's true or for a show is the only thing that matters to Kiefer right now. Kailangan ka nya kasi may pangarap sya at hindi ako naniniwala sa mga sinasabi mo. You know how ambitious Kiefer is. He needs this more than me kaya please if there's someone na dapat mong kausapin Im 100% sure na hindi ako yun"

"Mika ako na nagsasabi sa'yo, pag sinabi mo lang na mahal mo pa sya iiwanan nya lahat para sa'yo"

"Pakisabi sa kanya, mahal ko si Jeron kaya tumigil na sya"

"Pero Mika..."

"I have to go Alyssa. Your time is over, hinding hindi ko na ibibigay sa'yo ang sobra sa kung anuman ang meron ako. And one more thing, I already gave him to you, it's time for you to give me the peace of mind that I deserve"

And on that note iniwan ko syang magisa sa cafeteria. It's a non-sense convo, she's a non-sense person.

Masyado syang nainlove sa idea na mamahalin sya ni Kiefer without even thinking na kung talagang mahal sya ni Kiefer sana nung una pa lang sya na yung pinili nya. I guess someone left her IQ on the volleyball court. Very wrong.

After that convo with Alyssa pumunta ako sa parking lot where Jeron is currently waiting for me. I don't know why after that convo with Alyssa I feel the urge to stay away from Jeron for awhile. Something is bothering me. I don't know if it's just a series of my sprak moment but one thing is for sure. I need a time for myself.

Jeron's

We are now on our way to our dorm. Napansin kong kanina pa hindi nagsasalita si Mika. As far as I remember wala naman akong ginawang masama para magalit sya.

"Mika may problema ba?"

"Can I ask something?" she sighed heavily before answering me.

I know her too well and I know that there's something bothering her.

"What is it?" medyo kinakabahan ako dahil seryoso sya.

"Jeron how sure are you?"

"Ha? Saan?"

"Sakin. Sa'tin. Dito. Sa kung anong meron tayo"

"More than 100% sure"

"What if maging dahilan ako para hindi mo maachieve yung mga pangarap mo?"

"That will never happen"

"What if sabihin sa'yo nung pangarap mo na iwan mo ko?"

"Bakit sasabihin mo ba yun?"

"Jeron seryoso ko"

"Mika seryoso din ako. Ikaw yung pangarap ko. Seryoso ko sa'yo at sa lahat ng meron tayo"

"Sinasabi mo lang yan dahil nagsisimula palang tayo"

"No Mika. Alam ko yung gusto ko"

"Hindi mo alam ang sinasabi mo Jeron"

"What if ibalik ko yung tanong sa'yo Mika? What if ikaw yung papiliin between me and your dreams? What will you choose?"

"Jeron please"

"You can't answer me because you dont know, because you're not sure. Mika I guess between the two of us ikaw yung mas may doubt. Ikaw yung mas hindi alam yung gusto mo"

"You don't know what you are saying. We're both too young. Alam mong marami pa tayong pwedeng maachieve. Alam mong marami pang pwedeng ioffer satin dalawa. Jeron dadating yung time na kailangan nating pumili between each other and our dreams"

"When that happens will you choose me? Kasi ako oo pipiliin kita kasi kasama ka sa lahat ng pangarap na binubuo ko ngayon"

"Madaling sabihin yan sa ngayon Jeron"

"Mika hindi ako si Kiefer. I know nasaktan ka nung pinagpalit ka nya sa mga pangarap nya pero sana marealize mo na hindi lahat katulad nya. I don't know how will I prove that to you pero sana naman bago mo yun pagdudahan bigyan mo muna ko ng chance patunayan ang sarili ko sa'yo"

"Jeron I need space"

"You need what?" It took some time for my mind to process what she said. I didn't bother to look at her, I don't want to see the pain in her eyes pero mas ayokong makitang na she means it.

"Just give me time and space to reorganize everything" she said

"But why? I'm sorry kung may nasabi man ako. We can talk about it kung may problema man Mika"

"I need this and Im sure you need this too"

Napasandal ako sa upuan ko and I close my eyes, still contemplating what to do or what to say.

Should I say yes?

She's asking for too much. How can I give her something na never in my dreams na naimagine kong hihingiin nya ng ganito kaaga?

I sighed. What Mika wants, Jeron gives even if it will hurt Jeron.

Stupid Jeron. Don't be like Jeron.

"If that's what you want then ok" I said still not looking at her.

"But I'll wait, I promise. I know I sound so confident but I'm sure you need this space for yourself and not for Kiefer to fill it in" pahabol ko sa kanya.

"I'll go ahead. Thanks for the ride"

Lumabas na sya ng kotse ko without giving any assurance na babalikan nya pa ko. I don't know how long will it take for her to come back but one thing is for sure........

I'll wait no matter how much time it takes. Nakaya ko ngang hintaying dumating yung right timing for us. Eto pa kaya?

Pero.... I'll miss her for sure 😔

Author's Note:

It's lame
It's short
No kilig

But I need to do this 😅😅

Thank you loves for the good comments. I read everything promise kahit hindi ako nagrereply. Minsan kasi I dunno what to say kasi sobrang sabaw ko as a person pero THANK YOU TALAGA 😘😘 You inspire me to continue this. All of you 😊😊

Will work on next chapter within this week pero I need space charot hahaha 😘 thanks thanks..