Skeleton's Diary

First Page

[There are some ink stains on the page]

Please, In case of lost, return to: Arthur Cornwell

{Another day. This routine is killing me. Everything is streaming perfectly, not a single mistake, not a single hole. I'm just walking and watching.
I'm not living, I'm not surviving, I'm just...here.
I don't care about nothing anymore. I don't care about my " life"
Please, let me fade away.
I'm not needed in this world.
Nobody needs me.
Living is not what I deserve.
Give this soul to someone else
Maybe they will care more than I do.}

{You know my present
You know my past
Now, please
Make my future.}

{"Why I put my heart on every cursive letter?"}

{Sometimes I like to think stupid things. My thirst of lies will not subside easily.}

{Why you think that I'm going to abandon you?
I won't abandon you. Never. Why?
Because I'm so crazy about you.}

{I don't need happiness.}

{"I'm just the words, you are the sound"}

{It surprises me that I still have tears to shed after all this.}

{I let my head be my psychologist. I need someone that leads me to self-destruction.}

{I only know that when I saw you, I felt so much emotions and happiness that...that I seemed to have started living  from that moment}

{99% of my thoughts are made with the phrase "One day"
Well, we need to see if I'll survive until "That day"}

{I can hear, I can speak, I can listen.
But I'm deaf, I'm blind, I'm mute.}

{Why I'm trembling so much? Why my eyes are always wet?
Why  I'm too weak?}

{I always wanted to be a knight when I was little. I love their values. Honour, Loyalty, Strenght...I wanted to be someone's knight, being called "Brave" or "Kind", help the others...
But in the end, I'm just a jester. A coward who hide everything under a mask, who has no purposes or ambitions.
Please, I'm begging you. Save me.}

{Yes, I'm the fool who puts every piece of myself in that emotion called "Love". The one who most of us hate, the one who kills more than everything, the one in which others don't believe.
I'm the fool who loves until the end, who can die  for my love, who doesn't think twice before rip my heart apart and  give the piece to someone who need them.
I'm the fool
That nobody loves.}

{Don't  take off my mask from my face. There's nothing behind it. Only pain and destruction. Just a Ghost Town.}