This Feeling

Before Him: April 2015

Day 1:

Today was just like any day at school. Walked to classes with my best friend Destony and gossiped with her in the lunchroom. Until my 6th period Business class and things out of the the usual schedule began to occur. It was Thursday and we didn't meet in the usual classroom on Thursdays and Fridays, so we had a "study hall" in another classroom. I got there earlier than everyone else in the class, other than Easton ,who would get there early to talk to his step mom who was the teacher. It was always really awkward when I would walk in and it was just me and him in the room. I didn't really know him, I just knew of him. So normally I would just put my things down on my desk and roam the hallways until it was closer to class beginning. But today I felt like being a little more social and instead of roaming the halls, I said hi to Easton. He replied back with a big smile and said hi back.

(One thing about Easton that I should mention is that he was gorgeous. He had dark brown short hair ,brown eyes and tan skin, but the most perfect smile you could imagine on a human being. When he smiled big, you could see a tiny dimple on the right side of his face.)

Today was the first day I noticed that brilliant smile and I was stunned. I was probably staring too long because he began looking around the room, so I just left . A couple minutes passed and I saw some more people go into the class, so I figured that was a good time to go back into the classroom. Class begin just like normal, I talked to a couple friends who I sat by everyday, but in the back of my mind I couldn't get Easton's smile out my mind.

The end of the day came in a flash and I was so ready to go home. I shared a locker with my cousin Jayla and I also took her home. There was a routine to this . I would grab my stuff out of the bottom part and she would grab hers out the top. Along with this routine was the daily meeting of Dessie ,which was Jayla's best friend and my associate. Dessie was tall, skin the color of chocolate, and not exactly fat, but she wasn't skinny either. She was thick I guess you could say. Compared to me, she was like a mountain. I was skinny and short, and my skin was more of a caramel. Today, Dessie had gossip about some girl I didn't know and honestly I didn't care to know. The only reason Dessie even came to our locker was to wait on her boyfriend and you're not gonna believe who that is... lol yeah you guessed it ... Her boyfriend is Easton..the beautiful Easton. They've been dating for maybe a month and Dessie constantly complained about shit that I would be grateful to have my boyfriend even do. I never understood how they even got together, but I didn't care to ask.

Easton came walking toward us and said hi to Jayla and I. Dessie turned in his direction and gave him this dirtiest look. "What took you so long, you know my grandpa waiting on me", she said in a disgusted voice. "Well I had to stop by my step mom's room, you know I was doing my best", he said sympathetically. "Whatever, lets just go... Bye y'all", she said as she walking away. Just like everything else, this was also apart of our routine. Everyday Dessie would get mad at Easton for something, make him look stupid, and then force him to follow her around like a lost puppy. I felt bad, but there was no getting into Dessie's way when it came to what was hers. Well so she said...

I drove Jayla home and then drove myself to my wonderful small house. I lived with my grandmother because my parents died when I was younger. It wasn't all that bad. Today, she cooked fried chicken and green beans... we had this weekly and honestly I never get tired of it. I texted James my boyfriend who lived in Chicago while I ate. Our relationship was fairly rocky and I could tell we weren't gonna make it, but I guess I kept him around for convenience. We texted back and forth for several hours until I told him I needed to study and that I would text him later. He was always fine with that because he knew how serious I was about school unlike how he was.

I pulled out my anatomy and physiology book and reviewed the parts of the skeleton. Suddenly, I got this text from Dessie. Dessie doesn't text me very often, so I figured this was something important.

Dessie: Hey I need some advice about something

Me: What's up

Dessie: Alright, me and Easton have been dating for some time now and we haven't had sex or anything like that. I really want to, but he keeps saying he wants to wait because of his past. Like I wanna stay, but at the same time, i need some dick lol. What should i do?

I rolled my eyes as I finished reading that text. Dessie is the type of girl who loves sex and has had sex with many people. I would be honored if a boy wanted to wait to have sex with me instead of jumping right into it. At least he isn't using me.

Me: Umm well I mean you guys haven't been dating long, so you should just wait. Or break up with him. I honestly would just wait, but its up to you.

Dessie: Okay.. Thanks.. I'll give it a try until Prom

Me: no problem and good idea

Prom was May 10th and I wasn't going. I was super confused that Dessie would come to me for advice and not Jayla, but I didn't think nothing of it and just continued studying for anatomy.

It was around 9pm and I was done studying and was getting ready for bed. Instagram awaited me, so I checked it before going to sleep. As I was scrolling through everyone's selfies or food pictures, I got a DM (direct message). I clicked the orange 1 that glowed over the message box. It was from Easton... my heart started beating extremely hard... I forgot I had followed him on here.. and I didn't know he followed me back.

Easton: Hey Melissa, I know this is a little awkward but I was wondering if you could tell me whats on the anatomy test tomorrow. I remembered you were in my class and I'm skipping tomorrow lol. Not trying to fail, so if you wouldn't mind messaging me on her tomorrow after school and telling me what to study for.. that would be great :) Thanks so much!

Me: Oh yeah no problem. I don't blame you for skipping cause I would too! I'll message you tomorrow:).

He could of messaged anyone in our class. But why me? I fell asleep with that question in my head and dreamed of his smile. What is wrong with me?...