Here I am. Why am I here? Oh yeah, because I think I'm going crazy with grief.
"I hear his voice doctor, every once in a while, I'll hear him say something like, "What are you doing up so late Annabelle?" Stuff he used to say when he was alive."
I am at a shrink because I keep hearing my dead boyfriend, the love of my life, talking to me. I might be going bonkers but I'll leave that decision to the professional.
"How long ago did he die?"
Sometimes it feels like a forever ago, like the void he left has always been there, and other times the hole in my life is so glaring and painful that it feels like he just died in my arms.
"Do you have any feelings against him?"
Against him? Oh, she means the ever present feeling that he left me on purpose. He left me. He left me here in this life to survive without him. Doesn't he know I can't? I can't live without him alive! I can't.
I go home feeling drained. So much emotion in just an hour talking to a stranger. I guess sometimes it feels good to just vent. I begin working on my homework from college. After he died.... I decided to work on my doctorate.
"You're too smart for me, Annie."
"And you're too handsome for me." I retort out of habit. Even after a year I hear his phantom voice and respond like I always did. My phone dings pulling me out of the pit of my thoughts. It's a reminder to get ready for the party my friends are forcing me to. My friends are probably the only reason I haven't spiraled into depression and suicidal thoughts. Time to get ready to show the world how good at hiding feelings Annabeth Chase is.
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Truly, Demigod, Deeply
Fanfiction(AU- Despite the title, Annabeth and everyone else are not demigods. Crossover between the storyline of Truly, Madly, Deeply the movie and the characters of the Percy Jackson series.) 30 year old Annabeth Chase has lost the love of her life. He has...
