Chapter 10

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by waitforitloki

by waitforitloki

I sit in my room. Crying. Thinking. Not knowing what to do anymore with my life. Afraid of the future.

"i should of not even came.. I should of just left you to get knocked out.. and injured..hurt.. bruised.. PAINED.. unconcious."

AGAIN, Zayn's words replayed in my head. Last time they haunted me i came close to a beating. I lean back against my headboard with my knees under my chin, crying. Why am i crying? That's the question i keep asking myself. I just, I guess i feel so empty. Zayn was probably right, i should probably be a bit more laid back, fun, and just.. not me.

I sigh and look at my clock.. 11:30Pm.. It was 30 minutes till' 12:00am and here i am wide awake bored.. alone.. with no one to talk to .. I decide to text lissa.

Me: "Hey what are you doing?"

Lissa: "laying down in bed annoyed"

Me: "Why are you annoyed"

Lissa: "Because i hate people"

Me: "oh we should hang out...Lets go to the club and get wasted"

Lissa: "or maybe.. THROW A PARTY HERE AT MY HOUSE TOMORROW."

Me: GREAT IDEA.. but can we get wasted tonight.. i need it..

Lissa: "Ill be there in a couple minutes"

I change into a short black dress and text Jenifer & Daniela.

i heard a car beep outside and i locked my door and made my way.

"Hey girl!!" i hear a chorus of voices say. Obviously it was Daniela, Jenifer, and Lissa.

"hey." i half smile

"mmm okay okay. someone's a bit cranky." jenifer says leaning back into the seat

"Am Not!" i defend.

"Are too!"

"Nope!"

I turn up the radio loudly and out blasted out the song "Get Lucky" by Daft Punk ft. Pharell

"OH THIS IS MY JAM" i shout lowering the windows and turning up the radio in maximum volume

"oh THIS IS MY.. OOH... He's up all night till the sun, im up all night to get some, he's up all night for good fun, im up all night to get lucky." i jam out to the song as my friends look at me laughing.

"what ? leave me alone." i said laughing.

"i know who you wanna stay up all night withhh" Lissa blurts outs.

"Who?" i laugh.

"Zaaaaayyyyyynnnn" she said laughing.

My expression changes from happy.. to serious. I look out the window.

suddenly awkwardness filled up the air.

"oh." Jenifer said.

"No jenifer its not like that, I hate him.. I hate him more than you can ever imagine, he's rude, annoying, mean, Aggressive, too laid back, never takes anything seriously, he's a criminal, He's TROUBLE. I hate Zayn Malik with every little piece of my soul." i say as she turns her head to the window probably blocking out my voice

i sighed. There goes my night.