Forget Me Not -- ls

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[Warning: depending on your person, the next two chapters may contain triggering content. Read at your own risk.]

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June 4th, 2015

Dear Louis,

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being insensitive. I'm sorry for being too sensitive. I'm sorry for all the problems I've caused you. I'm sorry that Zayn left. I'm sorry that I didn't understand. I'm sorry I couldn't help or comfort you.

I'm sorry for being here.

You got me. You told me today that you were tired of doing this. To my face.

No matter how much the conversation killed me inside, I was still relieved that you at least spoke to me.

What you said... About me... I knew it was true. I knew I was bringing you down. Which means you lied all the times before when I put myself down. That's okay though. You won't need to deal with that anymore.

If you actually care, which I know you do, this isn't your fault. I'm doing this because I can't function anymore. I'm literally a walking time bomb, and if I don't disappear very soon, someone's going to get hurt. I don't want it to be you.

I love you so so much.

So fucking much.

Those times I said I hated you, I was just mad. So mad. But I don't. Not one finer in my body hates you. Not one.

You are an amazing person and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

You light up my world like nobody else.

Cheesy, I know.

I just wanted you to know that.

Bye, Lou..xx

H.