Everything he is

First day

Taylor

It was... terrible. When Calvin broke up with me, all I wanted was cry and eat ice cream, while listening to the best music for broken-hearted people - Ed's music.

I know, it sounds weird, and trust me it feels awkward listening to yours best friend just through headphones, but in some crazy way it helped me.

Maybe it was because his voice made me shiver without warning, or the high tones, that I needed his music. Or I would have died.

No that was a lie. I didn't need his music. I needed him. But I couldn't tell him. He was just my friend - nothing more.

So I cried, ate ice cream and listened to the music. I wasn't happy, but it helped me, little bit. I needed my friends, but I had only one. And I couldn't call him. I was too scared.

I was too scared of his reaction. Because I knew that I'll say him, what I feel. He could be  angry, sad, or both, but for sure he'll stop talking to me. But I wanted the best for him, and this obviously was not the best.

The first day was very, very difficult. I wanted to die. I felt like the biggest idiot ever. I thought, that Calvin is the best, but like ever, I was wrong. He was worse that everyone before. And I trusted him.

I felt bad for Ed. I ignored his calls, texts and mails. I'll bet that he was mad, worried and sad all at once, but this wasn't about him. Or was. I was confused. You know what Calvin said? "Hey, Taylor. I think that... we should end this. It doesn't work. I am sorry," this exactly he said. "But... why? I don't understand! I thought that we are happy. Give me one reason why," I said, tears filling my eyes. "Ask Ed." that was all he said. Then he packed his things and left the house.

After few hours I finally picked up the phone. Ed was calling. "Hey Tay. It's everything okay?" he asked. "Yeah," I whispered in raspy voice. "You don't sound like everything is okay. I will come to your place in five minutes, just don't do anything stupid," he said. I loved that thing on him - he cared so much, that it was unbelievable. Then there was just beeping in phone, so I put it down and tried to fix myself in the bathroom - oh well, I didn't look like I look normal, but I was little less scary.

When Ed came, I was lying on my couch and watching TV shows. After few rings I came to door and hugged him.

"What's up? Tay, what happened? I really wanna know," he looked deep in my eyes. "Okay," I sighed and went back to the couch. "So?" he asked curiously. "He... he broke up with me. He just left me," I sobbed. "Oh my God, I am so sorry for you, Taylor. But why? I mean, that you were so ideal couple," he stared at me. "I dunno, he said that I have to ask you," I said and started to cry. "Oh, shh, don't cry. He is dumb," Ed hugged me and tried to hush me.

"I know that, but will you say why? I wanna know why he said „ask Ed„" I sobbed. "Oh, I think it was because I said him that if he will break you I'll kill him," Ed said. "What? Why'd you say this?" I said, still very confused. "You are my best friend, Tay. I don't wanna get you hurt. You are the best friend I've ever had," he smiled and I sobbed. Yeah. But just friend. I thought, but I couldn't say it aloud. I just couldn't. "Yeah. Sure. Best friends," I gave him a fake smile and then we sat, next to each other, cuddling under the sheet and watching some stupid American TV shows until late in the night.

Okay, I know, it's too short, but I hope that you like this story :). All thanks to Klarisis7 because she is my best friend and we are practically sisters. I love ya, sis <3