Only Time Will Tell

Prologue

The sound of the lock that ringed around the room let me know that we were at last alone .. An The first thing that came to mind was that because we were alone no one could judge me ...
I could be Vulnerable here

As I hugged my mom from across the table I realized that this would forever be my life. None stop trips to the hospital, plus all the pilled up bills and lets not forget the sleepless nights. But I couldn't  give up on her I had to keep faith...If I didn't act strong for this lady across from me then who would? I'm all she has left.. Starring into her lost eyes I grabbed a hold of her hand and squeezed tight.

My mind drifted back to all of the good memories that we shared, it really pained me to see her like this in the condition she's in now.

It's like every time I visit her it's the same old thing with her, she looks every direction but at me and it hurts. I've learned to accept it though because even though she's not looking at me I know she's listening.

Sighing I kissed her hand that was gripped in mine.

"Mama I'm trying, I really am.. But I need you to get better. I need you to try to get better so you can get out of here, I-Just I need you to get better so we can live a normal life without this following us. Just me and you. An I know you can because your strong, your a fighter" Nodding my head and looking at her while she stared up at the ceiling my heart ached for her even more.

Standing up from the metal chair I kissed her forehead and slowly walked away.

As I left I finally let that one tear that's been begging to drop, fall down my cheek ..but as quickly as it hit my face I wiped it away twice as fast.