"I fell in love with the wrong one, didn't I?"
"It happens, my dear," her mother whispered "sometimes we fall in love and we think it's right but it's not"
"But mom, I loved him. I loved him with the deepest blues and the brightest reds. Every song, every poem, every everything was about him. We were supposed to make it, mom. He promised me this was it. He told me I was the one. Why did he lie, mom? Why did he do this to me?" she sobbed.
"Honey I—"
"No mom, just no. There is no excuse for anyone to ever do this to anyone, ever. No matter whats happened to you in this life, no matter who came, who left, who said they would, or who never did— nothing. He knew how I felt for him. He knew how I would go to the ends of the earth, how I would sing him any song, read him every book, if that meant that I loved him. I would do it. And then he just up and left me like this.
I'll never love like this again. I will never fall for the way someone looks for me. I will never lose my breath when I hear someone say my name. I will never love anyone like I loved him, again. I may love again, I may give my all for someone but I won't give them every last drop of me. They will always love me more than I love them. Because now, now I know what it feels like to love someone more than they could ever love you. Now, I know what he meant when he told me "I love you, but I don't love you like you love me." I get it now, I always loved him more, mom. Always. And now he's gone. Off loving someone else but they will never love him like I love him.
I just don't know what to do with myself. I don't know who I am and it's scaring me. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't be. I'm not the little girl you raised me to be anymore. Mom, what's happening to me? Why did he leave me like this?
Mom, are you still there?"
"Of course, darling"
"Mom, I miss him. And I'm afraid he doesn't miss me anymore. He's gotten use to the taste of her lips now and falls asleep to her laughs instead. He's really gone isn't he, mom?"
Her mother agreed, "I'm so sorry baby girl, I am."
"He's gone and I'll never be the same. Our pictures, our moments, everything it all means nothing now. He just keeps on living and I am just here. That's all I'll ever be. I'll always be here. I'll always be the girl he loved yesterday and not enough today. That's me now, mom. I'm just some girl."
