The Nerd

Hypocrite

Of me.

Covered in.

Green slimy.

Shampoo.

And then the comments, oh the comments are worse.

There's people commenting that I'm a whore, a loser, no one likes me, anti-social psychopath, and a crazy lunatic.

I slam my laptop shut, not wanting to read anymore. Maybe I shouldn't check social media today.

I place my laptop on my nightstand and crawl off my bed.

I grab my phone, speaker and head to the bathroom. I connect to my speaker, clicking on Hallelujah by Panic! At The Disco, stepping out of my clothes and jumping into the hot shower.

After about ten minutes I get out, throw on some nike sweats, a baggy t-shirt, throw my hair in a bun and head downstairs for dinner.

I walk into the kitchen and the tables already set with Gammy and Pops at the table.

"Hey pops." I say, placing a kiss on my grandpas cheek. Yes I call him pops.

"Hi my little butterfly." He says, with a smile.

I smile back and take a seat next to him.

We eat and talk about school, work and Gammys cooking.

After dinner I help clean up, tell Gammy and Pops goodnight and head up stairs.

I check my phone but, lock it back when I see no new texts from anyone. I don't know why I expect it so much, it's nothing new.

I set my phone back on my nightstand and pick up my book. I read for about an hour and than lay there and stare at the ceiling.

I try to go to sleep but, I keep tossing and turning. I look over at my alarm clock that reads 9:30. Gammy and them should be asleep by now.

I get up, put a jacket on, slip on my boots and tie up the laces, I grab my phone and peak out the door to make sure they're asleep.

I shut my door back quietly and open the window above my bed, I climb out onto the balcony and down the tree that hangs over it, I hop off the tree and began my walk to the park a street down from my house.

I finally get there after about five minutes. I go to the swings and gently swing back and forth.

I always go here when I can't sleep, to think, look at the stars and forget about everything around me.

I mean of course my life sounds horrible but, I wouldn't change it for the world. Yea I get bullied, but there's always going to be rude people in this world so, it's whatever they're not my problem. I'm not gonna waste my time on them and wishing I had a different life or comparing my life to others because, my life could be worse, I have a roof over my head, food on my plate, and two amazing people who care about me.

"Enjoying yourself."

My thoughts are interrupted by someone.

I snap my head over to the left and see a black figure, they step a little closer and I can see them clearer with the moons light.

They come over and sit in the swing next to me.

"What are you doing here?" I ask.

"Swinging what does it look I'm doing." Jake says, with a smirk.

"Bothering me with your annoyingness." I say, looking straight ahead.

"Watch what you say, you know what I can do to you." He says, with a glare.

I get up from the swing and look down at him, "Whatever helps you sleep at night." I say, turning around to walk out of the park.

"You don't care, do you?"

I stop walking and turn around to look at him, "What?"

He gets up, walks towards me and stops a few centimeters in front of me, "You don't care what people say or do to you."

"Why waste my time on people who don't matter and waste every second of my life moping over stupid stuff that's said and done because of people who have nothing better to do."

"Because what those people do is cruel and not necessary, you shouldn't let people walk all over you." He says, with sympathy.

I stare at him for a moment, confused. He's really trying to show me sympathy? 

He's such a hypocrite, "You're one of those people." I say angrily, I turn around and walk off leaving him standing in shock.

I climb back up the tree and into my room, I throw off my jacket, boots and plug my phone back up.

I crawl into bed and snuggle deep into my pillows.

I've never seen Jake act like that....

It was very odd.

*****

Soooo how do you like the new book?

I was gonna wait till I finished Loving The Bad Boy but, I just couldn't it's getting to good.

See ya later, please vote and comment!!