DejaVu.

Hurt.

I just sat there on my bed realizing Im back to the same place in life where I was three years ago. Partying fucking bitches, getting high. I wasn't like this three years ago I was happy and free but that all ended when my mother died. I lost a big part of me and it was hard getting my life back to normal like how it was to be. A week after her death, my ex-boyfriend Derek, who was my fiance at the time, hurted me so bad.

At my 21 birthday party I found my fiance and my sister having sex in my room. That night I also found out that they've been having an affair for a year. Two weeks later I found out she was pregnant. The situation teared me apart and completely changed me. I started partying, drinking, getting high, fucking bitches, and etc. During this phrase I met a girl name Dream. Her name wasn't dream for nothing. I felled inlove with her the day I met her. She was different. She caused me to stop my bad habits.

A year later a dream turned into a nightmare. She left out of the blue and I never heard from her again. I called her about 100 times, I even tried finding her. A couple months later I decided to give up and move on.

Now I'm back to my hold habits. Partying and drinking every night. Fucking bitches occasionally.

I heard a knock on my door knocking me out of my thought. I got up from my bed and went downstairs. I live by myself but in a couple of days I will be moving to new York where my "family" is.

"Who is it?" I asked walking towards the door.

"Adriana." I opened the door. It was a girl I met at a club a few weeks ago. She's a good friend. We even had sex a couple of times.

"Wassup." I said as I watched her walk in.

"I just wanted to talk to you about last night." She said looking at my face. Last night I was really high and forced Adriana to have sex with me, well that's what I was told. When I'm high I forget absolutely everything.

"Yeah about that I'm really sorry, Adriana." I said as I looked her in her eyes. "I really want to thank you for not calling the police. I didn't mean to rape you. I just get out of control when I'm high."

"Venus, its okay. I get it, you was high. Let's just forget about last night." She said kissing lips. I kissed her back.

"Babygirl, I'm sorry but I'm not in a good mood right now and I have to finish packing." I said wrapping my arms around her waist.

"Is there something I can do to help?"

"You want to help me pack?" She nodded her head. We walked to my room and grabbed a box. "Just put all the small stuff in that box."

"OK." She said walking to the dresser. I grabbed a box and started putting boxes of sneakers inside. "How long have you been living here?"

"I moved here a year after mother died. So about a year and a half." I said closing and tapping the box.

"Awe I'm sorry for your lost." She said stopping to look at a picture. "Is this her?" She faced a picture of my mother, my sister, and I to me.

"Yup the one in the middle." I said trying not to get emotional. The picture was taken 5 years ago at Trey, my stepbrother, wedding. I don't really want to get into that.

"She's beautiful." She said putting the picture frame in the box.
***

Its been an hour since we started packing. I taped my last box and stood up. "You hungry?" I asked looking at Adriana.

"Yeah." She said getting up from the floor. God she was beautiful.

"Let's go pick up dinner." I said grabbing my keys off my dresser. She followed me downstairs and to my car. We got in the car and I started diving towards red lobsters. I feel like eating in for some reason.