shawn mendes imagines

i'll always love you

this shit is so sad omfg my tears... it's a river in my room rn jfc

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i woke up to a sharp pain in my right side, the pain making me let out a gasp.

this can't be normal...

"shawn, get up," i whispered in a hurry, "shawn! wake up!" i shouted, pushing his shoulder enough to wake him up finally.

"hmm y/n, it's like 3am..." he mumbled in a hoarse voice, rubbing his eyes while looking at me with confusion written across his face.

"i don't know shawn, it's just - i can't - ahh!" i gripped onto the side of my stomach again, the pain only getting worse.

shawn sat up urgently, a look of complete worry decorating his face.

"could it be the baby?" shawn asked, resting a hand on my baby bump.

my eyes snapped to his at the question, tears developing in my eyes, "it's only been five months, that's way t-too s-soon - fuck!!"

by this point, shawn had scrambled to get his phone off the bedside table, dialing 911 in a hurry.

"yes? 911? no please my name is shawn mendes, my wife y/n mendes, she's only five months along on her pregnancy and she's having severe stomach pains,"

i gripped onto his shoulder with one hand out of complete worry, the other hand resting on my baby.

"no, jesus fucking christ you gotta listen to me!" shawn yelled through the phone, running a finger through his hair.

"hospital? um about 10 minutes away, is it that serious?" he mumbled into the phone, his eyes wild with worry.

i heard a muffled voice say something, causing shawn's eyes to snap in my direction with a look of utter panic, "yes we're on our way."

shawn hung up the phone, grabbing random items from all over our room, his urgency worrying me even more.

"shawn, what did they say?"

he looked at me now, zipping the bag he had packed in under 30 seconds, before walking over to me.

he easily lifted me up bridal style, his facial features giving me a look of sorrow, "our baby might be in trouble."

through many sobs and reassuring words from shawn, we finally made it to the emergency room.

shawn carried me again, before nurses came with a wheelchair.

a nurse came up to shawn as they started wheeling me away, "sir, you have to wait out here, please just wait in the waiting room-"

"are you crazy? that's my wife, i gotta be there for her!"

with the help of another security guard, shawn finally gave up the fight, mouthing the words "be strong for me" before i was wheeled into a room.

after a few tests were run, they finally let shawn back, all the nurses with looks of pity across their faces.

as the doctor approached the room, shawn's grip on my hand tightened as he sucked in a sharp breath.

"whatever happens, just know i'll always love you." he spoke with a tear staining his cheek, tucking a piece of fallen hair behind my ear.

"mr and mrs mendes? i-i hate to be the one to break it to you - i'm so sorry but you lost the baby."

immediately my cries and sobs were sounding throughout the hospital as shawn collapsed next to me, holding me as tight as he could manage without hurting me.

"i'll leave you two." the doctor announced, respectfully giving us space.

all i could hear was mine and shawn's sobs, the only reassurance was shawn's tight grip around me.

shawn brought his face out of the crook of my neck, his eyes red with tears continuously streaming down his rosy cheeks, "r-remember what i said doll: i'll a-always love you."

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lmao does anyone remember my very first book on here i'll always love you ??

lol well this is basically the ending for that oh snap

that book was so bad omfg why did i wait so long to delete it lmaooooo my writing was literal shit bye

stay rad, stay bad
- amanda !!