Tip Toe [Sequel to Could only Imagine]

Chapter 12

Emily POV

I wake up, my head full of cotton. What happened? I think in confusion. I hear a steady beeping, and look around. Why am I in a hospital? I think frantically. But I can't remember. The last thing I remember is heading to a job interview for Starbucks. I look around, trying to think. Then I see him. Tears dried on his face, sleeping with his neck at a uncomfortable looking angle on a chair right next to my bed. The one person that I have missed. 

"Cole?" I whisper. I feel tears of happiness come to my eyes. Maybe life could go back to how it was before, well, the kidnapping. I think with joy. With Cole here everything will be perfect. "Cole?" I say louder. He sits up straighter, rubbing his eyes. 

"E-emily?" He stutters. His face full of regret and worry. 

"Cole!" I shout happily hugging him. Tears of happiness fall like rain. I missed my teddy bear so much. I could hold him forever, but he pulls away. 

"Emily, how are you?" He says like I should be shouting at him. Why would I ever be mad at him? I think in confusion. 

"My head is a bit fuzzy," I say, my brows furrowing. "Cole what happened? How did I get here?" His face suddenly goes white. None of it makes since. 

"Emily, what is the last thing that you remember?" He asks quietly. 

"I was going to an interview for Starbucks, I think. I had said that I was going shopping to Gabe, and Alex," I trail off. Trying to remember more. "Where are they? Do they know you are here?" Cole looks down, at his feet, nodding. I see something drop from his face, onto his jeans. I lift up his face to see tears slowly falling. He doesn't meet my eyes. What could happen to hurt him? What is going on?

"Cole what happened? Whats wrong?" I ask, wiping his tears away. He doesn't answer, just breaths heavily. "Cole please. I'm scared," I say in a small voice. He finally looks me in the eye, then he kisses me. At first I am taken aback, but I snap out of it and kiss back. Everything is suddenly okay. With Cole by my side, I can get through anything. Nothing could be too bad to ruin me again. Nothing. But then there are people in the room. Nurses and a doctor. Cole is being taken outside the room. He gives me one last longing look before the door closes behind him.

"Emily how do you feel?" One nurse asks. 

"My head feels cloudy,"I start, but I'm cut off by another question.

"What did the mugger look like?" A policeman questions. 

"Mugger?" I ask confused.

"Fuzzy like cotton balls or like fog?" Another nurse asks before the policeman can say anything else.

"Cotton?" I say, more like a question. There are people all around me. Talking, writing down things on paper, and moving around. 

"Yes the man you tried to mug you! What did he look like?" The policeman pushed.

Before I can even try to remember a mugger someone says, "Sir, is this really necessary? Can't you come back latter?" 

"Yes it is. If this man is out there, he could hurt other people." I can't even tell where all of the voices are coming from. I feel my head swirling and pounding. Everything started to go blurry, then black.

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"Emily? Oh Emily please wake back up!" I hear a voice coming seemingly from another world. But soon everything around me started to come into focus, and I see Alex and Gabe sitting next to me. Their faces light up when they see my open eyes. 

"Where is Cole?" I ask rubbing my hurting head. Alex and Gabe look at each other. 

"He left your room and wouldn't talk to us. He just seemed really sad," Gabe says quietly. 

"Emily how are you feeling?" Alex asks taking my hand. 

Confused. Worried. Scared. I think, but I say, "My head kinda hurts." Alex looks like she wants to say something, but I cut her off. "What happened?" They both look at me in confusion.

"Emily what is the last thing you remember?" Gabe asks quietly like if he would talk to loud I would scream. 

"Going to a job interview?" I say, more asking if it is what I should remember. By the look on both their faces, I know its not. 

"Alex you need to go tell a nurse or something," Gabe says quietly. Alex doesn't say a word, just nods solemnly before walking out. 

"Gabe please," I plead. "What is going on?" 

"I think you lost some of your memory," Gabe says not looking me in the eye. I freeze. He says memory as if talking about someone that died. 

"What did I forget?" I ask, keeping all emotion out of my voice. Something isn't right and I need to know what. He just looks at his feet. "Gabe tell me what happened?" I ask again, my voice starting to shake. 

"Emily, Cole," he starts, but then cuts himself off. He can't seem to utter the words. I feel my heart drop at the word "Cole". I wait, afraid my voice will show how scared I am. "It's not my place to tell you I'm sorry." He says quietly, before standing up to leave.

"Gabe please don't leave!" I beg, reaching for his arm. He moves away before I can touch him. He turns toward the door. Gabe please I'm scared," I whimper, tears filling my eyes. Why would no one tell me what happened? I wonder in dismay. I feel tears come to my eyes. What ever it is, Alex and Gabe don't like it. "Please," I whimper before he leaves the room. I curl up into a ball and feel tears run down my face.

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I don't know how long I have been crying. Some doctors came in at one point, trying to ask me some questions. I refused to say anything. The same happened when Gabe came in, and latter Alex. I refused to talk. They let me down when I needed them the most. Everything is falling apart. Nothing is okay anymore. Nothing makes since. Then he comes in quietly. I think he thinks I am asleep. I am facing the other way, but I know its him. I am about to talk, turn around, or do something to show him I'm awake, but then he starts talking. 

"Emily, oh Emily. All of this is my fault. I don't want you thinking for a second that you did this." Cole pauses for a second. "Oh what have I done," He says, his voice shaking. I think he's crying. "Emily I am so so sorry. I was an idiot. I don't expect you to forgive me. I'm not sure Alex ever will," He continues. "I screwed up beyond repair. I'm not sure I even want you to forgive me. I don't deserve to live." My eyes widen, and I suddenly realize what he is planing to do. "Good bye." 

"Cole no!" I shout, spinning around. But he is gone. I feel my face fill with tears. Cole is going to kill himself.

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What did you think? I know its kinda sad... but ya. I thought of her loosing her memory, then it just kind of kept coming. Comment what you think of this story so far please. I'm not sure if people are really liking it... 

-Emily