Diary entry numbero 1:
Hello, my name is Sam. I'm currently undergoing a stressfull time in my life, and have not one single idea on how to deal with it. So, I've decided to journal all my thoughts and ideas into my diary. Well, here goes nothing!
Sam was a quiet and shy girl at school, she mostly tried to keep too herself. Not many people noticed her in the halls at school, and she sat with her best friend Oliva at lunch. She didn't mind, she liked to stear clear from all the drame, and she liked that she could eavesdrop on "the drama" without anyone noticing. But how long could that last? It was her eight grade year, and that was her last year with Olivia, whom she wouldn't be with the year after. How would she make friends? How would she handle all of her issues without Olivia. She soon realized, all of her friends, weren't always the best, including Olivia.
It all started in October, everyone was planning out what they were going to do for Halloween, and of course, Sam and her clique were sitting at the back table, talking about randomness as per usual. Sam, oddly, was deamed the "leader" of the group, and she didn't mind. Anything she said went. If she was mad at one of the five friends, everyone else was mad at the same person. If she laughed, everyone else lasughed. It was nice to have that power that no one else had. Well, back too the subject, she was with her group of friends, talking about what they were doing for Halloween. "I think I'm going to be a witch," said Veronica. "A witch? Well im going to be a cat," laughed Sarah. "I don't think I'm going to go trick or treating, Ima just pass out candy..." Sighed Sam. They all oddly agreed in unison, but, Olivia went on about her going as a candy queen, and strangely enough.. The rest of the girls agreed. Sam was dumbfounded. But, she brushed it off her shoulders.
Later that day at lunch, they were walking over to lunch, and when Sam tried to squeeze herself into the row of girls, laughing about something, they just wouldn't allow her in. So, she walked behind them. At this point, Sam got frustrated. What the hell was going on.. A couple months passed, and they all began to ignore Sam, without giving her a reason as to why they were. Every time they laughed, they wouldn't tell her why. She began to ait alone during class, at lunch, and at recess, confused to the point to where she would just blame herself.
Diary entry numbero 2:
I'm so alone.. What did i ever do to be shut out completely.. Even when i do try too talk to my so called friends, all they do is fucking block me out! My anxiety has gotten worse.. And so is my depression.. My friends have just left me completely, and I don't even know why..
Sam had given up on herself, her family, and her life. She didn't know what to do. She stopped caring about her hair, which she once loved, stopped caring about makeup, and singing. She just sat alone and tried to fit the puzzle pieces together, but it was as if the puzzle pieces she had were all from different boxes. They didn't add up.
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Tying To Find Myself
RandomA lonely girl, trying to figure out what to do in a sick and cruel world. But it isn't as easy as it seems, because every fairytail has it's horrific ending.
