Searching For Answers (We Can Make This Work sequel)

Chapter 60

"Hey kiddo, I'm just going to get some things in the store okay? Do you need anything?" I smiled as I entered Kate's room, seeing her at her desk

The kid never stopped! Even if she hadn't got homework she was giving herself work, she is so driven. She wants to be an attorney and she's already working herself like crazy! At 12 years old!

"Okay mom" she smiled up at me "no I'm good" she leaned to give me a side hug as I stood by her side

"I won't be long" I said gently as I kissed the top of her head softly

"Your father will be home in the next 10 minutes okay?" I said as I walked towards the door

"Okay" Kate mumbled back absentmindedly, her head in the books again

I shook my head and laughed as I left her room and walked back down the stairs. I grabbed my keys from the coffee table at the front door and left the house, locking the door behind me. I decided to walk to the store today, it was such a beautiful day.

On my way to the store I couldn't help but let my mind wander. As I strolled I looked all around me, the faces, the traffic, the stores, everything whirled into a blur as I let my thoughts take over. My god what a whirlwind my life has been! From that very first day I stepped foot in the BAU.... There was no turning back.

....Today is my first morning at the BAU. Excited, scared, ready .... All these emotions running through me as I take my first step out of the elevator. These 4 years of being with the F.B.I have finally led to this day. I can finally make my parents proud. As I walk out of the elevator I take out my files, I have to find Aaron Hotchner's office. A stern, unreadable face greets me at the top of the stairs. "Hello I'm Aaron Hotchner, how can I help you"........

Those first moments, that first glance of the office, of the team, of Aaron, it seemed like a distant past, like it never even happened! And then there was that defining first case, where I fell for a murderer, my first true love...

...I heard a knock on the door, JJ must've of forgotten something, I laughed to myself as I made my way down the stairs. I opened the door. "I couldn't leave you Darcy" his cool, smooth voice flowed through my ears. "Casper what do you want from me!" I demanded looking around to see if anyone was outside with him. "I want you Darcy Blake, from the first moment I met you I knew we had a connection, I need to see you." He said softly, sounding as if he truly meant every word that had just come out of his mouth. I couldn't help myself "Would you like to come in Casper?"...

Casper and I had some trying times, but our love was toxic, we were only fooling ourselves, I mean who ever heard of a love story between an FBI agent and a criminal? It was never going to work! And with all toxic beginnings comes a bitter end...

... "Look Casper, you know, I-I" I stuttered "I think we should take a break, you know, maybe it'll do us both some good, give us time to figure out what we really want and in a month or two we can come back and maybe sort things out." I said gently "What did you say?" he said with a dangerously low tone "after all this you want to take a "break" he said sarcastically. I could see the anger riveting through his body. What have I done? "You little bitch" he shouted at me, I could see his face going red, his fists tightly clenched "Casper please" I yelped as he raised his hand ...

I flinched remembering back to that moment, he wasn't the first man to raise a hand to me but he was the first man I ever loved to hurt me. And he did, he broke me, but I will always have a place in my heart for Casper. After all, he raised Jacob for 21 years! Not that I had a choice in that matter but still, he could have killed Jacob a long time ago, he also could have killed me, and he almost succeeded!