Forbidden

Chapter 21

I felt him move some of my hair, "Do you think it's his?"

I nodded, looking away from him. I'm sure this is making him upset. I know it was the right thing to tell him. He lent down, softly pressing his lips against mine. I'm a little surprised he's kissing me right now. I'm happy that he is. I thought he would be mad at me. I really need to get used to everything between us. It's just that it's all so different than what I'm used to. I moved a little closer to him, wrapping my arms around him. I felt him smile into the kiss before pulling away, "Thank you for telling me."

I nodded before he intertwined our fingers, leading the way out of the locker room. He lead me into a room with a ring in the middle with a few people standing around outside of it. I noticed a doorway to another room. I don't know what's back there but I'm not really worried about it. It's just a little weird being here with him. There were a few people staring at us. I'm sure it's because he hasn't been in a relationship before. We stopped in front of a table where he set done my bag. I noticed him smirk a little bit before he moved his hands to my hips, lifting me up onto the table. I can't help but smile a little bit. I should have seen that coming. He softly pecked my lips, "I like the idea of you being here."

I smiled a little bit, "Maybe I can start coming here with you more often."

"We can always talk about that later. They're probably mad that I'm already late."

"Sorry."

He chuckled before softly pecking my lips and pulling away. He winked before walking over to come of the guys. I know he needs to practice. I don't want to keep him from that. I also don't want to be one of those girlfriends that are always with their boyfriend either. This is the first time I've been here though. He did want me here too. I don't blame him with what's going. Hopefully he's not out there when we leave. 

As he started practicing I grabbed my laptop and started working on some things for the studio. I know I can't just let all the paperwork and bills go. I mean I don't want to go out of business. I love my studio and I also love Harry. I just need to split time between them. I didn't have to worry about any of that before. It's going to take a little bit. I hope Harry is fine with it. 

I worked on some things when a guy walked over, sitting next to me. He wasn't as tall as Harry. His hair wasn't as long as his either. I looked up as he asked, "You're Ashlyn, right?"

I nodded, "Who are you?"

He smiled, "Liam. He's hardly told us anything about you."

I looked at him a little confused, "What?"

"Harry only told us your name. He won't really tell us anything else. It's a little surprising that he even brought you here today."

"Honestly I wasn't going to till something happened."

He looked at me confused, "What was it?"

"I think I'll let him tell you. I'm not sure he'll want anyone to know."

He nodded, "I get it. I hope you know this is all a big step for him."

I nodded, "I know. We've talked about it."

"I have to ask you something."

"Okay. What is it?"

"Please don't hurt him. He's needed this for a long time."

"I won't."

I looked over at Harry and smiled a little bit. I can't imagine hurting him. I love him. I love being with him. I'm not going to hurt him. I don't plan on going anywhere. I really hope he doesn't hurt me either. I would rather him hurt me though. I don't want to see him heartbroken because of me. It would kill me. 

I couldn't help but keep looking at him. I really do love him. Even when he's completely sweaty like he is now. Everything about him is perfect to me. It's so cute how he's so focused right now. It's nice seeing him do what he loves. I just don't know how I'll feel about actually seeing him fight someone. I know I don't have very long till I have to see it. Less than a week. 

I closed my laptop, putting it back in my bag. I can't really concentrate anymore. I can't help but focus on Harry. It's crazy how much I love him. I can't wait for our date later. I know we have somethings we need to figure out. My thoughts were interrupted by Liam, "I can tell you love him."

I smiled, looking down at my hands, "I defiantly do."

It's not a lie. I do. It all probably happened so soon but I don't care. It's how I feel about him. I feel like I can't be without him anymore. I really don't want to be. We both just have some crazy pasts. I really hope that doesn't affect us. I know my past bothers him. I feel bad about it. I just can't help it. Liam asked, "How did you two even meet?"

I smiled a little bit looking at him, "I'll let him tell you that."

"You're hiding things just as much as he is."

"It's not my place to tell anyone. I feel like if he wants you all to know he'll tell you. Just give him some time."

I'm going to feel really bad if they really do bother him about things. I know how he likes to keep things private. He only told me somethings because he really wanted me to move in with him. He seemed sort of happy about telling me those things. No matter how bad some of them were I don't care. I'm not going to hold it against him. He makes me happy. His past is going to stay there. Hopefully mine can just stay there. As of right now it's not. I feel terrible about it. I just want to forget about it all. I want to focus on my future with Harry. I'm just not so sure how much of one that we'll have. He's admitted that he doesn't know what he wants. He's never thought about it. I don't want to force it all on him. As much as I know exactly what I want. I don't want any of it so soon. I just want to know I'm not wasting my time. I really don't want to over think any of this. I don't want to ruin things between us right now. We're happy. We're still learning things about each other. I really don't want to ruin it all by thinking into the future too much right now. Things just feel so right with him. I would consider changing what I want for him. I really don't want to be without him. 

We do have things to talk about. I'm not going to bring them up again for a little bit. We just talked about it a few days ago. I'm not going to keep bringing it up to him. I know that can just push him away. I really don't want that. We're both still getting used to being in a relationship. Well I'm getting used to not being completely controlled or yelled at over small things. He hasn't done any of that. I'm thankful for that. I don't want to be hurt anymore.