And She was Gone ... [FIN]

As the freezing cold wind blew

an unfailing darkness shatter around.

There in a corner of a spare room

sitted a girl, troubled and helpless,

and she has with her a blade,

and a clothe full of blood …

She could feel the pain on her wrist,

a wrist full of cuts and dripping blood.

She’s trying to let even a single tear out of her soring eyes …

eyes the looks straight to nowhere.

She’s feeling her head ache,

pain from being puzzled and troubled by everything !

She can’t think clearly, her heart starts to pump fast !

Hatred ! Her anger grew much more !!

Anger to people, to life, and everything that comes between !

She dreamed to fly, to soar the sky,

to be free from all of this !

To be free from hatred and anger,

to be out of the wiltherness and suffering,

to have peace even once …

She dreamed to run, to run far from all,

to go to different places,

to find true happiness, the purpose of being alive,

to reach her goal triumphantly …

But alas! She can’t! She never will be …

And she knew it from the very start,

knowing that a dream will always be a dream forever …

She wished to be happy …

True happiness and joy from the heart,

being thankfull for she is so blessed.

She had wanted to show everyone a warm, sweet smile on her lips.

She has been longing for love …

To experience being loved,

to feel the touch of care ragging through her soul.

She didn’t ask everybody to love her,

but just somebody to make her feel special.

But for now, its too late !!

As you realize her plea …

She was gone !!!

People just look up to her,

seeing that she has everything.

They just wish they were in her shoes.

But as they thought she has everything,

in the girl’s heart she has nothing …

She didn’t ask for this !

I didn’t ask for this !!!

Yes ! It is I !!!

I didn’t ask for everything !

I didn’t wish for everything !

I don’t want this !

This life you thought was so abundant, full of joy …

But the truth … Yes ! You don’t know the truth !!

You don’t know that the life you could ever dreamed of is a nightmare !!

A life full of sadness, the feeling of being alone …

“How can a simple mortal see what is the truth behind an image so bold ??!!

A truth so rare that could mean alot to everyone …… ”

A moment of silence … Seconds goes by …

The sound of the ticking clock seems too far to be heard clearly.

I could feel my body being paralyzed by pain.

I couldn’t see clearly …

My eyes are only fixed on a small dim light across the room.

My brain seems to have stopped functioning.

The beating of my heart starts to slow down, that I could hardly hear it.

I couldn’t feel a thing.

I couldn’t hear a thing.

I couldn’t see a thing.

I just felt this could be the time ...

A light gentle breeze blew

Now, I really couldn’t feel a single thing.

Nothing ! Its just like … nothing … too empty ...

I just smiled and closed my teary eyes.

A tear rolled down on my cheek.

Heavy darkness … Yes, its so dark …

I feel a little scared ... No ! I won't be ..

Silence ...

And I was gone …

An hour or two have passed …

The door opened with full force.

The powerfull light shone upon a laying body of a girl, so cold and pale.

An old man and his wife stared at it with a broken heart.

Tears and cries filled the atmosphere

They were too late !

For just now that they realized an irreplaceable value …

Tears of grief flow …

And she was gone …

Forever …

(C) 2005-2006

[author's note]

Ok lang ba? bata pa ako nung sinulat ko toh..hehe ngaun ko lang napublish..

Actually suicide note talaga toh.. pero dont worry, buhay pa naman ko ngaun.. LOOOOOL :D

Thank you nga pala sa pagbabasa !! :)