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12:28 AM - 11/20/15
im just not happy.

my emotions peak and plummet and it's driving me crazy.

you know this thing where you have to constantly watch out for the next low so you just underestimate everything in fear of disappointment?

i know i do.

and it's pretty shit.

it's also getting very hard for me to find motivation these days so you can just imagine how great life is for me right now.

i also hate my parents having to constantly tell me that i suck everyday. i don't know when they'll finally tell me that i'm appreciated.

i just hope one day would be different, you know. at least one day where my hard work doesn't go to waste, and everything turns out right.

where everything just clicked.

i'm just really fucking lost and i don't know what to do.