You sit and cry when no ones around
You think to myself
why am I so useless
why should I even be here
then you start thinking
it would be better for everyone if im just gone
no one will miss me
so you get up and
you walk to the kitchen
when you get there
you look for a knife
you find one and go back to your room
when you get there you start crying even more
you take the knife and put it to your wrist
your about to take your life
but you start thinking
but soon the good thoughts of living is over thrown by the bad thoughts
you think about the kids that make fun of you at school
you think about the mean kids that tell you to go kill yourself
you think about the guy you loved for years told you it would be better if you died
but what you don't think about is
the family that loves you
about the friends that love you
and about how it would just kill the ones you love to know your dead
you take the knife you have a cuts both wrist
and within a few minutes your dead
twenty minutes later
your parents come home
they call your name over and over to come to the kitchen
after a while of not responding
they send your eight year old sister to get you
she walks in your room
and the first thing she see's is her dead sister
she screams
your parents come running
they get in your room
your parents see your dead body
your sister and your mother are now crying a lot
your dad is there shocked
then tears start running down your dads face
and he never cries
ten minutes later
cops and paramedics are there
they take your body away
your dad is now trying to comfort your mom and sister
for months your sister has nightmares about seeing your dead body
your mom still looks out the window at the time your suppose to be coming home from school
and your dad when ever he walks by your old room he stops and stares at the door for hours
they will never get over your death
and your best friend when she heard about it
she's not the same
she stays up all night every nite thinking about you
and the people that were mean to you
feel horrible a few of them even tried to kill themselves because of it
so much people are hurting because your gone
.
they loved you and they still do
and they will never forget you
you meant everything to them
but you only thought about yourself
you were never useless or worthless
and you can never undo what you did
you killed yourself
when you meant the world to people
just remember that