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P.S. I Love You

"Kahit pa ano ang sa 'kin ay gawin, dahil mahal ka handa kong tiisin."

I'm here at home waiting for him. He promised we are gonna go out for dinner. He told me he loved me I will always believe in him.

Its past 11:00PM and he's not home yet. Siguro natagalan lang sa practice.

I didn't notice I already fell asleep in the sofa. Around 1AM I heard him honking his car. I gladly opened the gate for him. I smell alcohol. Ok fine he may have forgotten Ok lang.

Yes we are living together but no we are not yet married. Yes we are intimate but no we don't have any plans of getting married. As to why? I don't know maybe he's not yet ready.

Kiefer: why are you still up? Happy monthsary Aly I need to sleep I'm really tired.

Alyssa: its actually our THIRD anniversary. But thanks anyway.

"Kahit mo saktan di ko papansinin amg pagluha ko huwag mong intindihin"

It went on for months. He's been really cold to me. I tried my best to rekindle what we used to have. Pero nararamdaman ko may iba. May iba na siya.

Alyssa: Ella, Den di ko alam nararamdaman ko eh. Alam mo yung sinasabi nilang woman's instinct? Iba talaga eh.

Ella: eh bakit di mo nalang diretsuhin? Tanong mo na. Mahirap yung palagi mag-iisip ng masama. Alam mo pa naman yun masyadong pabling.

Denden: no offense besh, he's a good friend at wala akong masasabi dun. Pero simula nung naging kayo and that you've committed fully to him parang ginagawa ka nalang niyang past time. Yung pag wala siyang ginagawa dun ka niya napapansin.

Alyssa: besh, he comes home. We live in the same house kung talagang ayaw na niya sa akin he will leave. I appreciate your honesty guys pero parang grabe naman yung sinasabi niyo.

Honestly, I don't want to ask him kasi I don't think I can stand the truth.

"Ang pag-ibig daw ay krus na kay bigat ang layuan ka'y payo nilang lahat di ko magawa mahal kitang tapat P.S. I love you yan ba'y di pa sapat?"

Kiefer: I'm sorry Aly. Sorry talaga. Maniwala ka minahal talaga kita. Pero natukso ako. Di ko napigilan sarili ko. I don't want to continue lying to you.

Alyssa: three years Kief. 3 years. I gave you my all. Ano pa ba ang kulang? Dahil ba di ako maganda? Di ako sexy? Ano ba kief?

Kiefer: I DON'T KNOW!! pwede naman natin ipagpatuloy to pero masasaktan lang kita.

I begged but he left. Ang sakit. I was shattered. I was not even myself anymore. Sinubukan ko mag move on.

Denden: Alyssa ano ba? Bumangon ka na diyan! Let's play volleyball let's eat anything you want to do! Gusto mo magmukmok? Mag suicide ano ba!

Ella: den tama na. Try to understand she's still pained right now.

Denden: pained? Its been 3 months! Naiintindihan mo ba?

Alyssa: I'm leaving. Pupunta na ako sa Canada. My application to stay and live there has been approved.

Denden: seriously? Ano? Iiwas ka? Aalis ka? Hindi yan ang Alyssa na kilala ko.

Ella: besh don't decide quickly on things that may change your life. Huwag ganun besh. Nandito pamilya mo nandito kami besh he is not worth it.

Alyssa: you don't and you will never understand.

I left the Philippines.

Oh not just me. I mean WE left the country.

Me and my baby. No one knew I was pregnant when I left. Not any of my friends nor family know. Bakit? Simple lang sadyang ayoko lang makita nila how much of a loser I was.

Life was too difficult for me. But I was able to handle.

Kiefer's POV

Damn. I left her for a woman who was just like me. The woman I left her for was a player. Sobrang ganda st sexy magaling din sa kama at hindi clingy kaya naman naging sobrang dali lang para sa akin na magustuhan ka. Kaya nga inakala ko na mahal ko na siya talaga. Ang dali kong iniwan si Alyssa I thought I fell out of love pero hindi pala. Maybe nanibago lang ako sa pakiramdam na nakaka challenge yung babaeng yun.

Well it's been more than 3 years when we parted ways. I got an invite from the ADMU Athletic Department na there will be a get together for the alumni and current athletes of the school.

Von: oh paps its good to see you here. Buti nagka time ka.

Kiefer: siyempre naman pare I wont miss this for the world teka si Ella de Jesus ba yun? At Amy Ahomiro?

Von: ah, oo paps di ba kayo nagkita kanina? Galing no nakakapaglaro na sila abroad? Si Ella nakapag libero na sa Thailand.

Kiefer: and Alyssa also played for the Canadian team. Galing talaga.

I went near the volleybelles. Mangangamusta lang.

Kiefer: Ella! Hi! Kamusta na?

Ella: oh hi there Phenom. Ok lang ako. Ikaw ba?

Kiefer: ok na ok. Uhm.. darating ba si Denden?

Amy: straight to the point kief you wanna ask if Alyssa's coming right? If that's what it is YES pupunta siya.

Kiefer: ah hindi naman sa ganun its very unlikely lang na si Denden wala dito.

Amy: ALY!!!!!!

we all looked at the direction Amy was looking at. Grabe. Ang ganda ganda niya. Ang sexy. Well toned body. I don't even know what to say.

Alyssa: hi guys!! Sorry am I late?

Ella: no besh. Just right on cue.

I can't help but stare at her. Grabe ganda niya. And honestly natapos ang gabi na hindi ko siya nalapitan.

Days passed by and I started following her social media accounts. Galing niya. Ang ganda.

Saw her sa Savemore and approached her. And it took all the guts from me...

To be continued..