Invisible

Part 1-Intro

I heard Luke come in but I didn't stop. I was at the point where I didn't even care if I went too far this time. I just wanted it to end. "Dani? Are you here?" I heard him call. I knew he was gonna find me. He now entered the room I was staying in and tried to open the bathroom door but of course I locked it. "Dani? Are you in there?" I didn't answer but instead I broke down in tears. "Dani!!!" Dani, open the door! Dani" He started yelling through the door. "I can't" I replied. "Dani...please...." he started begging. Soon he stopped trying to get in. I guess he gave up on me like everyone else in my life. This only made by cuts deeper. Before I can even think more the door busts open. "Dani!" Luke yells when he see me. I don't stop. I try to keep going but before I can he runs over to the tub and rips the blade out of my hand and throws it but the side of the bath. "Why?" He asks. Sounding like he's about to cry. "I just.....I wanna feel pretty for once in my life! I hate that no one can see how broken I am! I hate feeling the way I do. I can't keep doing this and this is the only way to get rid of it!" He looks shocked by my answer...like he didn't know I felt like this. Maybe he didn't but I thought I was making it very noticeable. I hate how people never see how hurt and broken I am. By thinking all this I'm now crying even more than I was 2 minutes ago. "B-but I always try to make you fell better when you say you're insecure about something" "I know but I never do. I know you try to help me but sometimes its a lot harder than you think." When I said this, I think a moment of realization hit him and he finally realized how messed up I am because he started crying too. When he started to cry my heart just broke. I didn't want him to feel this way. "no no no, why are you crying?" I asked not worried about myself anymore but about him. "I-I hate that you feel this way! You're perfect! In every single way and for you to do this to yourself...I feel like a horrible boyfriend because..." I cut him off before he could finish. "You're not a bad boyfriend!" I said right away. "I just-I hate myself so much" "Exactly! As your boyfriend and best friend I shouldn't ever let you feel like that." "You can't control the way I feel....no one can." "but I'm suppose to make it better and I can't even do that!" "Luke...." "No Dani! I can't..." is all he said before he grabbed the blade and ran it across his wrist that was just moments before on mine. I knew he used to cut but he told me he stopped. "LUKE!!!!!! Stop!" I yelled. I tried to grab it back but him being so tall I couldn't reach it. "Dani, I can't even make you feel better about yourself...I deserve this!" "NO Luke! You don't!! Please stop!" I begged with tears coming out of my eyes faster than they every have in my life. I now know how he felt when he saw me. Its one of the worst feelings in the world. The next thing I know he is already at 3 long cuts. "Luke please...I'll stop!" As soon as I yelled that he looked down at me with tears streaming down his face. "What" he whispered. "I'll stop" I said in a voice you could barely hear. I didn't even know what I was saying or what it meant...I just knew I didn't want to see him hurt. "Dani, I hate seeing you like this and..." "Luke I'll stop if you stop." Right then and there I knew I had to stay strong for him. For Luke. I knew that for once in my life someone actually cares about me. I've never been good enough for anyone. Everyone always told me that I was never gonna matter, but Luke. Luke makes me feel different. "ok" was all he said and all he needed to say. After we both cleaned up I went to the room I way staying in because I don't live here and get ready to sleep. Right before I fell asleep I hear someone come in. "Luke" I asked. "Hey its me. I just wanted to tell you that....I really love you." When he said this I couldn't help but start to cry. I'm not used to people tell me they love me. "I love you too." I said in a raspy voice cause I am tired. "I mean it Dani. I love you and I don't ever want what happened tonight to happen again." I don't either and it won't because we both promised. Right?" I asked looking into his eyes. "Right" he said with a small smile. He got up and kissed my forehead then left to his room. I know I love him. I've never felt like this about anyone other than my sister. I don't even remember what it feels like to have a mom or dad. I've grown to love the other guys but not like I love Luke. I need Luke. I would fall apart without him. I almost did. I slowly start to drift off to sleep. I'm at the point where I can't even hear my own thoughts. How I like it.

**Flash back 14 months ago**

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Ahhhhh I hope you guys liked it! This is a story I started writing like 5 months ago but am just now putting on here! wow I didn't realize it was this long! haha that always happens!

-Abby