How did this happen

What am i gonna do

" Amanda can I come help you?"
" Yyyes" I said weakly
She runs in and hold my hair and rubs my back
"It's just So hard"
I start to cry and embarrass myself
"Olivia you don't get it I had an orgasm"
"Amanda it's your bodies reaction no need to be embarrassed"
"But it hurt so much what he did to me, How can I move on"
"Well we can fist start by getting you to the hospital to get your baby checked out and get a rape kit"
20 minutes later at the hospital
The doctor came in and said they needed to do a rape kit
As Olivia started to Leave I called her
"Wait Olivia can you stay with me I really don't want to be alone"
"Sure thing Rollins"
About 2 hours later they had finally finished and now it was time for the ultrasound
"Now Detective you are at 2 weeks so we can't see anything but it looks like you are going to be just fine and you have a healthy baby so far"
"You are still early into the pregnancy but have you had any morning sickness"
I was about to say yes but I felt my breakfast and dinner come up again and I ended up throwing up on myself.
"Well I guess that answers our question
But you also have some significant bruising and cuts on your legs and where you were raped"
This started up the waterworks again
And I was having flashbacks of the rape and I was so embarrassed about it.
"Amanda! Amanda! Snap out of it!!!
I start to breath again and I saw the worried look on Olivia's face
I sat up and tried to smile through the pain.
"Doctor can we have a minute?"
When the doctor leaves..
Olivia sits down on my bed and holds my hand
"Rollins who did this to you?"
I don't...
I couldn't finish my sentence because I was on a throw up again.
Olivia quickly got the garbage can and I threw up all the meds they gave me.
"I started to cry and Olivia held my hand tight and asked what was bothering me
" I don't know what to tell the guys."
"I'll take care of it Amanda you get some rest."
"I smiled and she wiped the tear off my face and i fell asleep."
Back at the precinct
"Hey Liv where's Amanda?"
"Come in to my office for a minute."
"Guys Amanda is in the hospital.
"What?"
"Calm down Fin"
"How did she end up there?"
"Ok so Amanda was raped and beaten in her house last night."
"What????, By who?"
"She doesn't know and there's one more thing...
"She's pregnant.."
"Is that why she's been in the bathroom the last few days a lot?"
"Uh yes Carisi I actually found out yesterday"
"How?"
"I walked into the bathroom and there she was throwing up."
"Oh"
"I'm gonna go see her"
"Wait a minute Carisi"
Carisi stopped and turned around
"Let me go with you I know a lot more"
Carisi nodded and they left
Back at the hospital
"Hey Rollins"
I looked up and saw Liv and Carisi there
Carisi sat down next to Me
"Amanda how many weeks are you??"
I breathed cautiously
"2"
" is it Mine?"
"I tried to look away but Olivia looked at me
"I just found out"
"So that night when I came to your place and we you know.."
"Mmhmm"
Carisi nodded I felt quesy again I looked around nervously for a garbage can. Unfortunately I couldn't get to one in time and ended up puking all over myself.
Olivia looked back at me and knew that tears were coming again.
" Hey Carisi go on back I'm gonna stay with Rollins for a while"
Carisi nodded and exited the room
" hey Amanda"
I started to cry and I showed her the burns on my arms.
She leaned over and hugged me and I reached over and hugged her back.
"Sir you can't go in there that's a private room!!"
I looked up and saw outside the window a man.
I started to breathe really heavily and panic
"Olivia.. That's him.. He is the one who attacked me
"Amanda are you sure?"
"Yes!!"
Olivia went outside to talk to the doctor and suddenly the man came into my room and jumped on top of me.
"You stupid B****h Now your really gonna bay he unhooked my I.v and started to beat me I tried to call for help but he taped my mouth.
Soon the man hurriedly ran out and the whole room started spinning and it went dark.
Olivia walks back in
"What the hell?"
"Call a doctor someone please she's unconscious."
A team of doctors walked back in and saw blood under the sheets
Olivia stood there crying wondering what was going to happen.
-12:00pm
When I woke up I realized I was covered in bandages again.
I also realized that I was gonna be sick again
I tried to get a bucket but ended up throwing up on myself and over the bed
"Olivia entered the room again and saw that I was awake
"Amanda are you okay?"
I guess so I'm just really..
I couldn't finish my sentence because I ended up throwing up on myself and on the floor beside the bed
*vomits*
"Nauseous"
I was about to put my head back but the movement triggered it again.
" Olivia!"
She quickly found the garbage can and held it for me to puke in
When I finished she gently and as carefully as possible lagged my head back with little movement.
" Amanda how you feeling?