Losing Luster

What happened to me?

I used to be so. . .

energetic. Happy.

What happened to me?

I used to laugh,

and it wouldn't feel fake.

I used to smile,

without worrying how stupid I looked

while doing so.

I used to be so lively,

and now it seems as if I can't even

drag myself down the corridor.

I used to be so into that particular goal of mine,

but now I'm doubting myself,

thinking that it was ridiculous.

It's like there's something stuck in my throat,

weighing down my chest,

my heart.

It seems as if I've lost myself.

It feels as if I'm losing luster.