JOURNEY TO THE WEST

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Pauline
Wow! This is it. Miles and miles away from home. Am I really ready for this? To leave away from mama, daddy, my friends (like i had many), the little flings I had and thought I was in love.

And the list goes on but I still cannot put mind on this trip and that is really happening. Normally I would have leaped with joy but instead I feel nothing but sadness taking over me.

With all this thinking, I did not even feel the tap on my shoulder. 'Excuse me, would you care for something to drink', asked the air hostess.

'Orange juice with ice please', I politely replied. With a smile she served the juice and moved to the next seats. My mind went back to wandering. Only this time it wasn't about home and everybody I would miss. It was about this little person growing inside me. I knew from the day he was conceived that I was doomed.

With the strict culture I grew up in, it did not hold me back when it came to having fun. But I had too much of it and became pregnant. I don't regret my pregnancy. I am just scared because life away from parents has only began. What am I going to do for him/ her? Will I be the best mother? Will I make mistakes? Where will I go for help? It's driving me crazy.

While I am fighting my mind, I missed another tap on my shoulder. This time it wasn't the drink lady. It was the food lady. I asked for chicken for they served it better than beef. As soon as I was done eating, I drifted off into a nice tiring sleep.