....why?......why me....why do I have to exist?....there's nothing useful for me on this world....I have nothing left to live for.....what's my purpose?......I probably don't have one......my heart...it's heavy.....my soul....it's lost....my head....it aches......I'm sorry....but I can't help but miss the sharp blade that crosses my skin.....goodbye to staying almost 7 months clean....I lost the battle....and I don't know what to do.....they tell me I'm worthless......I'm nothing....I shouldn't live...I make peoples lives worse.....there probably right...I can't block them out....and it hurts so much.....I hate it...I want to scream....but I can't.....I'm alone....I have nothing....maybe I should jump of a bridge and die......that's probably my best way to end it.....heh....it's the second time I'm actually going public with this side of me.....Oh well...I guess your not gonna care anyways....no one will....so what are your gonna do?......pm me telling me that I'm showing off?.....telling me there right?.....telling me that I'm just posting this so I could get attention?.....go ahead...I can't blame you though if your thinking that.....it's not the first time anyways.....I've gotten use to it....Oh well...what can you do about it? Is what I say to myself....I'll be hiding behind a mask of a smile anyways....that's how it always was......and I guess that picture is right.....I'll be leaving now...goodbye
