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"Uh, I ran into Matthew. I was just leaving," I put my head down and walked past them.

That was awkward, Justin eyes followed my every move. I didn't get in my car because I needed to take a walk and clear my mind.

Five minutes into my walk, I found a park. I took a seat on the swing and just sat there, not swinging just thinking. Thinking about Justin's kiss, the way his lips felt on mine and how it felt different than the way kyle and I first kissed.

I'm sure that's what freaked me out the most, that I might actually like someone that's not Kyle. I'm scared to fall in love again and have my heart broken, I'm still not over what Kyle did to me. Its hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember.

The sky grew darker, I knew it was going to rain but not this soon. But I was kind of thankful because the rain would blend in with my tears and no one would notice.

I looked up at the sky, listening to the thunder rumble seconds later ran began to fall. I groaned slightly, getting up I hugged my chest and left the park. I wasn't far from my car, but I was surely getting soaked.

A black familiar truck pulled up beside me, I tried my best to ignore it but it didn't work.

"Kelsey, need a ride?"

"No, thanks Kyle" I yelled still not facing him.

"Come on, kelsey, you're going to get sick. Let me give you a ride home."

"My car is just up the block, thank you."

"Then let me drive you to your car," he offers.

I didn't want to take up on his offer, but knowing me I was going to eventually. It was the least he could do after what he put me through. Inside the car, he blasted the heat since I was cold.

It was quiet, so quiet that you can just hear our breathing. He didn't dare turn the radio on, only because he hated driving with music on when were together.

"So, your car is-"

"Parked in front of starbucks."

"Why so far?" He chuckles.

"I decided to take a walk" I shrugged, he nods and continues driving.

The entire time in the car he tried to make small talk, but we both knew it wasn't getting anywhere.

It felt like an eternity being in his car, but it was only five minutes. He pulled up to the open space of the curb and put it in park.

"Thank you, Kyle. I really appreciate it." I smiled.

I reached for the car door, but he stopped me.

"Do you not feel the same anymore?" His words took me by surprise.

"Excuse me?" I frowned.

"Do you not feel the same way about me anymore?"

"Where is this coming from?"

"Kelsey, I just can't keep acting like we're friends anymore, I love you. I'm still in love with you. I made a huge mistake and it sucks because I knew I lost the best thing I'll ever have."

"Kyle, I love you" I said "I will always love you, but I don't think we could ever be together again."

"How can you love someone but not want to be with them?" He asked, almost as if he were going to cry.

"I don't know and I'm sorry Kyle. But you brought this upon yourself, no matter what you'll still be my first love but I don't feel the same anymore."