I Keep Falling In Love With Him

Chapter 13

DAMIENS POV

we headed to starbucks and the car ride there was silent we decided to take both cars we pulled up and got out of are cars

walked in

hi what can i get you today a nice waittress said to much was going on and I got a call

umm white choclate moca double shot of expresso

chappin looked at the menu the back at the lady at the counter

ma'am would you like the usual

yeah that will be fine

i realized shes been here alot

bells ordered java chiller

we payed the lady and went to set at a booth it was quit silent the bells spoke up

i have work in half an hour at the sweet bay

i have to go

okay i said

chappin seemed to not responed

hey chappin

yeah wanna go back to my house uh and finish the movie thats all i could think of at that moment

uh it looked like she was trying to think of an excuse to say no which mad me get saddened and my hear sank a little i think she noticed me cause she automaticly said yes

we got in the car to go to my house it took about 15 it seemed forever becuase none of us spoke

i got out and raced over to the passenger door to open it i dont know why its just habit

we got in and i felt i should tell her i remember everything just spill my heart out to her and maybe she will understand

hey the movies about to start her soft sweet voice said

about 30 minutes into the movie i couldnt help it anymore of being still cause it causes me to think about the bad

i just started randomly tickling her she started to laugh trying to fght me off laughing so hard she couldnt do anything but laugh now we were play fighting she was so cute her laugh was adorable i tried to hold it back but i couldnt and i kissed her right there she seemed to not care and kept going

the she jerked away and pushed me off and ran up stairs to the bathroom i was in shock what she was doingi felt horrible i ran up stairs and found her in the bathroom with the door shut crying

chappin are you okay?

please just leave me alone

whats wrong im really sorry truely sorry i should have thought about the worst

just give me a moment

CHAPPIN POV

dont get me wrong that was amazing but all i could do was read over what peter sent me on the phone and kisses damien made it worse becuase i was actually consisdering i was a slut it hasnt even been 3 and a half weeks since the break up it was terrible

DAMIEN POV

I was so confused and i knew it wasnt the time to tell her what happen and right then i couldnt help my self i went to my room becuase i couldnt fight it anymore i started to cut my wrist over aned over till all the pain started to go away and then i was to weak to do anything and stopped and blacked out in my floor

i woke up in a hospital bed to limpt to move so i didnt i tried to speak but my throat was dry some one stood up in tears i couledhear them crying i hated people crying

please dont cry i managed to say

im so sorry for everything your mom is on her way i already called her

youll be okay the docteer just said that you lost alot of blood and thats why your hear

Mr shores Someone is hear to see you a firm voice said.

ima go its your mom you too can talk

i walked out and past Mrs.

im so sorry and i fell in tears

dont worry baby its okay its not the first time hes strong

what do u mean?

he didnt tell you

every since yall stopped being friends and his dad died and you left he didnt have no one there for him no friends at all and it set him in depression and i had to send him to a theropist and get medication but since 10 th grade youd think it would be gone by now he still hasnt moved on i had to take him off the medication becuase he never talked to me just set there life less and hes been cutting him self ever since and i cant stop him it just makes him do it more

i lost it and ran out of the hospital

got in damiens car and headed towards his house and as i got there i ran up stairs and found the note book and started to read

day 1

its reallly hard why cant god help me i feel linke he hates me i cant go on much longer everything is too much dad isnt here anymore and chappin left me why cant you be on my side for once and give me hope

i skimmed thruogh even more things i broke down and couldnt read it anymore