This is my life (EDITING)

~~~~JACKSON~~~~

I walked into the bathroom and turned the hot water on all the way. Why is she lying to me? Is she trying to hide something? What if she doesn't trust me anymore, so she's not telling me the truth? Does she feel the same way as I do or not? I had to shake my head to stop the thoughts from driving me BONKERS!! I needed to focus on something other then Raven lying to me; I just need to!! But the only thing I could think of was how mad I was at her. Then I started to think of how she kept saying "in your arms" I liked the idea of that, but at the same time I didn't like it one bit! I want to be with her, but at the same time I want, no, I need it to be real with her because she is one of the only people that I have ever really loved; I'm not into fake relationships. Okay, that was a little wrong of me to say since I just want to sleep with the girls I meet, no strings attached, but those always end badly. Most of the time I have to ask Raven for help getting rid of those girls. She does, but then she gives me really long and annoying lectures about how: 'I shouldn't be doing that kind of thing to girls because it's wrong to hurts them like that', and stuff like that, I stop listening to her about half way through almost every time now because I have heard it so many times. I know that I kinda sound makes me sound like a hypocrite, but it's the truth! I love Raven very much, but when she lies to me... I don't know something inside of me changes; it's utterly terrifying! I know that she is hiding something though; I just know it, but what? I can't think of anything she wouldn't want me to know. It's not like she secretly in love with me too, right? I mean, what's to hide after that? I couldn't put my finger on it yet but I would get it later. My head started to hurt, and my hands were pruned, so I decided to get out of the shower. After I was done changing, I laid down in the bed. It was harder to fall asleep without Raven than I thought it would be. I decided to forgive her for now, and crawled into the bed with her. The bed was warm and comfy; I fell into sleep-land faster than usual.

I woke up to the sunlight frying my eyelids and the soft sound of Raven singing "Helena (So Long & Goodnight)" by My Chemical Romance, on her iPod and reading "The Vampire Chronicles" by Anne Rice. I love it when Raven sings; she sounds so much like her mother. Her voice is like Amy Lee's and Rihanna's voice had a baby and it was her voice. I decided that I would just lay here and listen to her sing. It was very relaxing hearing Raven sing. I lay there listing to her sing for about 15 minutes. She sang "In the End" by Black Veil Brides, "Wanted Dead or Alive" by Bon Jovi, "Sk8er Boi" by Avril Lavigne "Breath" by Breaking Benjamin, "Carry on my Wayward Son" by Kansas; and then she looked at me to see if I was awake. I closed my eyes and slowed my breathing; after about 45 seconds of not hearing anything, I opened up my eyes. Raven was no more that 2 inches from my face; I jumped up and screamed! She fell on her butt laughing. My heart was beating 90 to nothing. Raven, still on the ground, was choking with laughter. I fell to my back on the bed with my hand over my heart, trying to catch my breath.

"Why was that so funny to you?" I asked Raven in an irritated tone after I had caught my breath.

"Well, for starters that scream was one of the most girlish scream known to mankind. And secondly because I wasn't expecting you to jump out of your skin, and you did, so, yeah it was funny. Sorry Babe, but it was there is no denying that that was funny." She said in a matter-of-factish tone. I've noticed that she used that tone with me a lot, 'Probably, because she always needs to be right'. I told myself; she's always been that way.

"So, why did you scare me in the first place, BABE?" I asked, over pronouncing the word 'babe'.

"Because, I knew you've been sleep-stalking me for the last 15 minutes, and I just wanted to is that a crime?" Raven said in a tone of complete-unwavering seriousness. I had to try extra hard not to laugh.

"'Sleep-stalking'" I had to try not to laugh when I said it. "What the heck is that?" I asked. I finally gave in and laughed, putting my face in my hands. When I looked up Raven was giving me her famous 'Death Stare'! Oh, boy was I in trouble now! "Okay, look I'm sorry I laughed, but you have to admit it was pretty funny." I told her trying to keep the panic out of my voice. Raven may only be 5'2' and 127 pounds but she was wicked strong, fast, and hit so hard I would have grapefruit-sized bruises for weeks! She was staring at me so hard; I though her eyes might pop right out of her pretty face.

"I know you sorry, but" her face slowly cracking into a smile. "your right it was pretty funny, jus please stop laughing at my words." She told me with the straight face. She lightly punched my arm then walked back to the chair and started reading again. Raven didn't like it when people made fun of her, or anything she did or even said. She used to be bullied by a group of boys and when she was about 11 her mom and dad let her take kickboxing classes and she finish all of the classes in about 9 months and is now a deadly weapon and I love it!

"But, sleep-stalking is acting like your sleeping but really you'er just stalking that person or persons like they are some type of prey." Raven said with a cynical smile on her beautiful face.I laughed and got into the shower.