Fucked-Up Thinking

relapse.

Im sorry .
I relapsed lastnight.
19 small deep cuts on my right thigh.

I feel like a piece of shit.
Look like shit too.

I really want to cry right now.
Can someone please hold me?
I need a long hug.
I need someone who will never let go.
I need someone who will be there for me no matter what.
I need someone who wont scold me of i relapse , someone who wont make me feel like shit

I need "Her"

I just wanna go home and sleep forever.
I havent eaten, im not hungry, so whats the point?

Can someone beat the shit out of me so i have a real reason to cry.
Im having a hard time finding a good one.

Im tired of feeling lonely.
Im tired of feeling broken.

Note to self: Never fall for a straight girl.

bye♡
Samantha