Indescribable

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

*a few days later*

Everything has calmed down since we talked to the lawyer and moved all if Kara's belongings into our house. I have to share my room with her, due to the fact that our house only has 2 bedrooms.

Fiona was staying with us for a while, but her mom started getting worried and asked her to come home.

My mom has been really bad recently, with her being sick and all, so I have to stay home all the time, or I have to take Kara everywhere with me. We have a nurse that comes and takes care of my mom a lot. It's really hard seeing my mom so sick. It's definitely frustrating to have to take Kara everywhere, but I'm still learning how all of this works.

I can't help but get upset and a little teary-eyed when Kara talks to me now. She always calls me mommy, unless she's asking where her mommy is. I can't bear to explain what happened. I am just going to wait until she's older.

I was walking around the house, trying to get Kara to go to sleep, but she wouldn't do it. I decided to sit down in the rocking chair in my room and try to rock her to sleep. I started humming to her while rubbing her back, it's the only thing that would make her go to sleep... I used to sing to her, but she apparently does not like my singing voice.

I eventually heard her softly snoring and decided to lay her down quietly.

After I laid her down, I went to write down, on the calendar, what time she went to sleep. That's when I realized what the date was. Today is July 8, and the One Direction concert is in four days. I need to call Fi. Crap!

I paced around the house, with my phone in my hand, trying to figure out how to break the news to Fi that she couldn't go to the concert with me. I took a deep breath and sighed loudly.

I decided it would probably be best to call Fi and let her know now, rather than put it off and upset her later.

I unlocked my phone and dialed her number. I didn't press call right away, because I had to prepare myself to break the heart of my best friend.

"Ugh!!" I yelled in frustration. "I have to do this now, no more waiting!" I know she is going to be devastated.

I pressed call.

Ring

Ring

Ring

"Fi, please answer!" I whispered.

Ring

Ring

Ring

Her answering machine picked up.

"Hello, this is Fiona, sorry, can't get to the phone right now! Leave a message, or I might not get back in touch with you. Bye!"

*beep*

I forgot she was at work!

"Fi, please call me back when you get this! I really need to talk to you." I pleaded, desperation filling my voice.

I hung up, slid my phone in my back pocket, and decided to go get something to eat.

I looked up and noticed that I had somehow made my way into the laundry room.

"Why?" I thought to myself, "I don't have any dirty clothes in my hands... I guess, while I paced around the house, I ended up in here. Oh well."

I left the laundry room and headed towards the kitchen. I walked over to my fridge and opened it up. I looked around and thought about what I wanted to eat.

As I let my eyes roam the shelves of the fridge looking for something chocolate, my gaze fell upon something wonderful. My very special, homemade chocolate chip cheesecake. My mouth watered at the sight and I quickly grabbed it and placed it on the counter. I pulled a knife and fork out of the silverware drawer and a plate from the cabinet. I cut myself a slice and then put the rest away. I picked up some of my slice with my fork to eat it.

Before the fork made it to my mouth, my phone buzzed. I let out a deep sigh and pulled my phone out of my pocket.

"Hello?" I didn't check the caller I. D., but I knew who it was.

"Bazzy? Is everything okay? I got your message, and it sounded pretty urgent, so I took an early break to call back! What's going on?" She rushed through her words, panic filled her voice.

*Great, now I feel bad for calling. Sandra, Fi's boss, hates it when Fi takes an early break.*

"Yeah, it's not really all that urgent... but you know what today is, right?!" I asked, trying to stall.

"It better be urgent! Sandra chewed me out for taking my break now. But yes, today is July 8th. Why?" that's what I didn't want her to ask.

"No reason, just making sure you knew! Actually, I had forgotten and needed reminding. Anyway, that's all for now, so I guess I'll let you get back to work, just forget I ever called because it really isn't all that important. So, I'll talk to you later, bye!!" I tried to distract her by spitting out a lot of words to confuse her.

"Now I know you're hiding something! You only ever say that many words at a time when you are trying to distract people. Usually it works, but I know you too well. Bazzy, tell me what's going on, please," Fi begged. Curse the fact that she knows me so well.

"Fi, I need to tell you something, but I know it will break your heart." I told her. There is no use in stalling anymore.

"It would be best to just say it, right? Just tell me, I won't get mad." Fi pleaded, sounding worried. Why does she have to make this so difficult? I hate hurting her!

"Fine! You know what's coming up in four days, right?" I asked her.

"Of course! Only the most amazing concert of all time!" She practically yelled in excitement.

*Oh, yay... not*

"We'll, there has been a change of plans and you can't come with me." I tried to say that as quickly as possible.

"Excuse me?" Fi asked, shocked. Great, she heard me.

"Well, Jake only got me two tickets: one for me, one for you. Since the accident, my mom's cancer has spread more. I have no one to watch Kara, since the nurse said she couldn't watch her, so I have to take her to the concert. I would go and buy another ticket, but the show is completely sold out! I am really sorry Fi. I was going to tell you later, but I didn't know how long it would be till I saw you again! I'm sorry," I answered. I felt the tears brimming my eyes, but I pushed them away.

The next word Fi said completely broke my heart. You could hear the tears in her voice as she responded to everything I had just said.

"What?"