Limerence

Fake plastic love.

Anastasia stumbles out of a bar, wiping drool from her face and softly hiccuping, she pulls out her phone, the screen incredibly blurry. She sinks to the ground, met with the oldness of the pavement and slight wetness from earlier rain. Her fingers auto-Pilot to the first person in her contact list. Mariana. Her absolute best friend.. just her bestFRIEND, the title "friend" churns Anastasia's stomach. She dials Mariana and puts the phone up to her ear and it rings, once..twice.. and theres a soft sleepy voice who cracks through the other line. "Mm hello? Anastasia its 2 in the morning..." Mariana's voice is sweet and it's like a knife in Anastasia's heart. "Hey Mariana...I was just wondering if um...you could pick me up? I'm at the bar down the street from your apartment.." there's a long pause before Mariana finally responds. "Of course...hang tight, Stas" and then the line cuts off. Anastasia looks up at the stars, they shine so brightly, just like Mariana-... Anastasia quickly shoves the thought and her conflicted feelings down. Mariana is straight, she needs to get through her head, but she just can't chase away the feeling lingering. After about 10 minutes pass Mariana's small beat up Cadillac cimarron pulls up, Anastasia struggled to get up but eventually slides into the passenger seat and buckles in. Mariana glances over and softly smiles. "Had too much to drink, hm?" Anastasia lets out a soft hiccupy laugh "maybe, just a few too many..." the car ride is silent except for Anastasia's hiccups and sudden giggles. Once they pull up to Mariana's apartment Mariana steps out of the car and walks to the passenger side. She opens Anastasia's door, unbuckles her, guiding her out of the car. Anastasia trips her own two feet like always and lets out a dramatic gasp before Mariana reaches to grab Anastasia's waist, steadying her. Anastasia's stomach does flips as she tries to focus on walking to the door but her mind keeps landing back on how Mariana's soft hands are holding her waist, it's just like heaven. Once inside Anastasia finds her way to Mariana's bed, curling up under the warmth of the blankets, Mariana follows suit,sliding into bed next to Anastasia. Anastasia looks over at Mariana as their gazes meet, God her beautiful brown eyes are just too much for Anastasia, there's a long pause before Anastasia finally speaks "Mariana.. have you ever wanted to kiss...a girl-..?" The question hangs in the air, catching Mariana off guard "I've thought about it, you know...I can't deny that i like girls more but I've never done anything with one" Mariana leans in slightly closer "why? You wanna kiss a girl?" Anastasia freezes, what is she even supposed to say to that, yes i want to kiss you, or I've never wanted anything more than to just kiss you? No! That would be completely crazy, it wouldn't happen. She swallows before whispering "i do want to kiss a girl.. to um- to know what its like" Mariana lets out a soft teasing "mmhm" it goes silent apart from the odd cricket chirp. Mariana cups Anastasia's face in her small hands "I could always be your first,and you mine. To test it out" Anastasia's breath hitches and her mind blanks, this is what's she's wanted, to kiss Mariana, but its not out of love or affection, is to "test it out" those words repeat inside of Anastasia's mind before speaking "yeah...test it out" she says in a soft disappointment, but before she can overthink anymore pf what Mariana said, Mariana leans dow, their lips meeting. The kiss is soft, and slow, it's like a perfect moment that was destined to happen, in that moment, Anastasia realizes she'd kill herself for recognition, kill herself for recognition from Mariana. She thought she had everything figured out, but she realizes she can't be just Mariana's best"friend" it's the best thing she's had, the best thing that's she ever had. As they pull away they sit in silence before Mariana speaks up "now go to sleep, Stas..." Anastasia is conflicted on if she should say something or just turn over and fall asleep, she chooses he second options and turns away, falling asleep clinging Mariana's pillow. After a few minutes pass Mariana checks she's asleep before slowly leaning in and kissing Anastasia's temple before laying back down with an arm draped around Anastasia. The night falls. Silent as they sleep in each others comfort and shared turmoil.